all my follow-up appointments indicate that i’m cancer- free. i’m hesitant to state this with confidence and certainty because this past year has shown me that there’s very little certain about our physical existence. but for now, i’m done with cancer. now i have to focus on how to get back to doing the things that bring me joy.
Brandy Worrall's Life List
1. organize and minimalize
4. socialize more
5. write write write and write some more
6. read, read, read, read
7. learn Vietnamese
8. learn italian
9. read french, write french, speak french.
11. write poetry
12. exercise my brain
15. get a TESOL certificate
16. learn more about tarot
17. be healthy
18. be of service
19. get back on track
It’s been one week and two days since I had my mastectomy. I seem to be recovering quite well. I had a pocket of fluid on my right arm and side of my chest from the lymph node dissection, so that’s kinda annoying. But otherwise, I’m able to sit up and walk around a little bit. I get the stitches out next week.
I think because I had a tram-flap reconstruction rather than implants, I almost feel like I still have my own breasts, since my own tissue was used for the reconstruction. I’m starting to think that makes a big difference in how I react to my new body—almost as if I don’t even have a new body, just a different arrangement! And just in time for swimsuit season!
i’m going in for a double mastectomy with an immediate tram flap reconstruction.
It’s going to be a long surgery, but there should be no reason why anything would go wrong. I’m just nervous about after the surgery, how I will heal, and if I’ve finally kicked cancer’s ass once and for all. I’m feeling all the positive vibes out there!