breathingdeeply

i think my other goals will help in this area. (e.g., meditation, being grateful, loving unconditionally)

and i want to do so, and practice so it becomes an integrated part of my life.

to let go of myself in a relationship. i want to be able to do that.

in terms of getting rid of physical things. however, my lifestyle (e.g., going out) is still quite extravagant. i want to thrive and explore the simple things in life.

or because i’m emotionally volatile. i want to be the same, authentic person that reacts to things from a grounded state.

so i’m going to start trying to, every fifteen minutes, remember to breathe. and breathe deeply.

which is why i’ve been finding it difficult to meditate regularly. i should be engaged in the process, as meditation is the process, not the result. often, it just means starting and then not forcing myself to either achieve a goal or see it as another chore.

doing this regularly. i just signed up for some personal trainer sessions, so hopefully i’ll get some additional motivation as well as techniques on doing things properly.

as i’m out to many people, but i’m still very conscious of my sexuality. i want to be completely non-self conscious about this aspect of my life, and to come out to everyone around me (especially certain family members who don’t know).

but i don’t always appreciate things that i have. instead, i look to improving my situation – because i’ve been conditioned to do so or i’ve been comparing myself to others. i need to be more grateful and take advantage of everything around me.