brendamayer

My psych doc started me on the Emsam patch about two weeks ago and now I’m starting to feel a lot better. I even left the house yesterday and the day before.

I have been treated for depression for over ten years now. My depression has been called treatment resistent by my psychiatrist and so I’ve had VNS implanted. That’s a device similar to a pacemaker in my chest except the leads go up to the vagus nerve which goes to my brain. I’m getting an electrical stimulation every five minutes. There’s no guarantee that this will work, and if it does work it could take up to a year to see results. Going to this extent shows the level of my desperation I guess. I’ve tried having the attitude that I could control the depression. I’ve done all the positive thinking, positive self talk, imagery, and written and said more affirmations than I can count. The demon always comes back. Fortunately I have an extremely supportive husband. And hope. Right now, today, I am living on hope.