brunettegrrl

Wow – I wrote an entry about my ED 8 months ago & since then things have taken a dive for the worse.

I have dropped out of college for the 2nd time because it was all too much to deal with. Those who have bulimia or anorexia should understand.. college life & a raging ED doesn’t really go hand in hand.

6 months ago I started to use amphetamines to help me loose weight & stop b/p’ing & god- things have just got so bad! Now I am not only a bulimic but a strung out bulimic who is addicted to speed.

The good news is that next week I am going to make the committment to go into treatment- teen challenge in my city. It is actually a year long program… which is crazy long, but honestly I think I probably need that amount of help. I am confident there is a life out there that doesn’t involve me binging, purging, using drugs or laxatives, & worrying constantly about my weight.

I can do this… I think.

Yay so I am already on like my 8th book! I read.. The Hot Zone, A Million Little Pieces (SO GOOD), The Quiet Room (SO GOOD), Prozac Nation, Alone, The Killing Hour, and The Survivors Club.

Right now I am reading “The Hot Zone”.. it is SO good. Go read that book! It is all about viruses and how they spread and multiple.. it is terrifying- the accounts of people being infected with Ebola. I just shudder when I read it.
I am also reading “Prozac Nation” again. It is quite, quite depressing.. but I relate to her a lot.