busybrat2

I’m excited.

but i didn’t buy them. I’m gonna go back tomorrow cause now I reallyyyy want a deck. :)

I want to make a friend that I don’t hate. I never hang out with the ‘friends’ I have now, and I don’t want to…They annoy me and I just don’t like being around them..I want to make a friend that I can actually have fun with..hmm..

Whenever I’m at school the other girls in my class will open up their little compact mirrors at random times in the day, yet when Im washing my hands in the bathroom at school I have to focus on my hands cause when I look in the mirror I get all depressed and my eyes burn..I’m serious, It’s painful to look at myself in the mirror..And I figure I might as well not look cause i know there’s nothing i can do about it..Basically I could be pretty but I have

1) pimples ALL THE TIME which no one else in my class have problems with. and Ive tried covering it up with make-up but it looks weird.

2) My teeth are not perfectly white but Crest Whitestrips are like 30 dollars..and Im not old enough to get a real job

3) My hair is okay, but the layer underneath is frizzy and gross but the lady at the hair dresser said its just the texture of my hair..pshh..whatever.

4) im not fat, but Im not skinny…I always wear the same two sweatshirts..so I always look like a slob..and my calves are…too big in my opinion. My mom says its muscule cause i play soccer but im not even that good and the better players have skinny legs too.

5) I basically have horrible self esteem so I cant wear form fitting clothes cause I think im not skinny enough to look good in them and I have pimples on my chest and back so no one wants to see that..Goshh what’s my problem? And ranting about it online makes me feel more pathetic and depressed about it..And all these problems I just talked about are holding me down from being happy and going out more..like, i never hang out with people my age cause i always feel self-conscious and then that pushes them away more cause they think im boring and dont wanna hang out with them…god, i hate myself.

6) oh yeah..i forgot to add that i have purple under my eyes like bags or something..i dunno if its cause i dont sleep enough or what and i dont know how to get rid of it..alright..im done..continue with the festivities..

OH YEAH! One more thing..im only 14 years old and Im already having this stuff along with school work to worry about.. If you know of any reallyy good and effective suggestions, home remedies, or not too expensive products that will help me get rid of some of this crap I’d really appreciate it.

I have no pets at all, but i really want a dog but my dad always says no.

even make the website in the first place?

It was on an Orlando commercial….
“Meet new friends, see the sights, feel alright!”

hey, i want to know the name of a song that i heard on T.V. and I really liked it. I think it might be a little old…Im not exactly sure how it goes. It’s like ” then the teacher asked me whats my lesson” then he says something like I don’t listen (im not sure)and then he repeats it saying “I don’t liisteen”
If that makes any sense at all please help. ;)