It has been hard to count my blessings lately, especially since my list of “To Do” gets longer and longer, and usually comprised of “urgent but not important” things. I feel like I am drowning in the sea of mundane details of human existence, living out Thoreau’s version of quiet desperation. But I have to keep reminding myself that this is only a valley, that the road uphill is never easy, and this, too, shall pass. At times like this, counting my blessings is not about counting how many great things are happening to me—-it’s about counting on my faith of good things to come.
c14lee's Life List
1. exercise regularly
2. Learn to speed read
3. Actually meet face-to-face with someone from 43 Things
4. have conversations late into the night with fascinating people
5. clean out my email inboxes
6. draw something every day
7. COUNT MY BLESSINGS
8. be great at my profession
9. surround myself with good people
10. simplify my life
11. be more decisive
12. Manage my expectations
13. have dinner parties
14. learn to swim
15. learn how to dance
16. get rid of all my clutter
17. make real friends that share my interests
18. take multi-vitamins everyday
I can’t believe I am putting God as number 4, quite blasphemous! He has always been more on the background, but lately, I feel more and more the urge to praise Him for the source of all good things in my life. I haven’t always been a Christian, and even when I did accept Christ, I wasn’t always devoted. Fallen away so many times I’ve lost count! But God never gave up—-He has always loved this prodigal daughter. And I am blessed, because He is in my life.
I went to my first meetup meeting last week and it was a blast! I had dinner with some very nice and interesting people and had a wonderful night of conversations, food, and wine. I guess this is equivalent to that great first date in a relationship. But all in all, I am just happy that I took the first step to meeting new people, to overcoming my resistance to change. I stepped out, finally!