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c4itlinnn

needs time to do nothing without feeling guilty.



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overcome anxiety (read all 4 entries…)
:/ 6 days ago

I am kind of struggling here again.
Maybe its the time of year.

I am having anxiety about my teaching, and about my boyfriend, and about my future.

I feel I’m not a good enough or knowledgable enough teacher.

I feel like he doesn’t want me.

I feel like it won’t come quick enough.

Nov 05, 09:07PM PST | 0 comments


Live in Austin (read all 2 entries…)
MUST. CONVINCE. BOYFRIEND. 3 weeks ago

I WANT TO LIVE HERE SO SO BAD.

We just went this past weekend to go to a show and visit some friends, and oh oh ohhhhh. I don’t like parties anywhere but in Austin, I fit in.
We drove out to Barton Creek Mall and the drive there was so beautiful and it just made me feel happy and alive.

I want my boyfriend to go to graduate school there so badly! My life would be absolutely perfect!

Oct 16, 09:54PM PDT | 0 comments


control my spending (read all 4 entries…)
I am really really really really 3 weeks ago

really really bad at this.

I spend to the point that I have to draw money out of my savings account to prevent overdrafting. ):

Its not like I am out buying expensive things. For instance, on Wednesday, I spent $105 on: a dress from Express; nice khakis, a sweater, 2 pairs of tights from Gap; and boots from a weird store.

I love everything I bought to bits and cant believe I got all of it for hardly $100.

But still. I am not working and have an income of $400 a month from parents and stock. $200 for groceries/medication, $200 for survival. Not good.

Oct 16, 09:50PM PDT | 0 comments


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