I'm doing 33 things
I know it’s been a long time since I have blogged about this, but since my last entry (8mths ago) I have been doing seriously good. I’m back to a ‘normal’ weight, doing much better in all areas of my life -ie health, social, etc. Only thing is, I don’t know whether or not to click the ‘I’ve done this’ button. When really can you? Another four months? Another year? Ten?
:/
Anywho, I am feeling good. This is very vague, because I’m in a rush, I’ll update/add later.
Although – sure, at times it is difficult. Especially when I’m under a lot of stress or a lot of cr*p is happening generally in my life, but I keep reminding myself not to go back there. It can only go downhill if I do. I should say, I’m in an optimistic mood right now, believe me there’s times when I feel almost the complete opposite, almost as if I, I don’t know- miss it, nearly? But overall, I’m glad I am trying. I’m stronger. It doesn’t control me now.
Hope you are all doing good! :)
Cass x
cAsSiEsproblem's Life List
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1. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
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2. find beauty in everything
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3. Make a scrapbook over the summer
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4. travel
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5. learn belly dancing
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6. kiss under water
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7. Go skydiving
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8. snuggle in front of a fire and under the stars
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9. Go white water rafting
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10. stop procrastinating
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11. Throw a drink in someone's face
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12. whistle between my fingers
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13. Not be so shy
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14. Donate blood more often
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15. Kiss in the rain
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16. make my own clothes
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17. buy a polaroid camera
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18. love
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19. Own more music
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20. smile more
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21. Go travelling by myself
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22. Be more of a hippie
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23. work at Starbucks
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24. learn to dance
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25. Fall in love
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26. Travel and Study Abroad
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27. drink wine late into the night and talk about something meaningless but seemingly important at the time with someone smart, funny and slightly dangerous
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28. Learn to play the guitar
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29. Learn how to remember peoples' names
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30. Read all the books in my "must read" pile
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31. Spend less time fooling around on the net and more time actually working
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32. have better posture
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33. travel more
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How I did it: It took me a while to buy tickets and obviously wait for the actual festival, but a big group of us decided to just go for it during the summer. the music line up wasn't as great as some previous years, but all the acts were class, & Kings of Leon were fantastic :Dthe people you meet, even getting closer with your already good friends. it's a cool experience, man i have to say. Read how I did it…
if it’s a good book it’ll be soo much more enjoyable if you read it all at once instead of small parts over a few weeks. done it with a couple of books actually!
Yes, like I said I’m definitely working – and making progress! – on it.
Although, I’m sort of having doubts as to how far I can go with recovering.
One thing is I’m not sure if this is something that you can ever click the ‘I’ve done this’ button in reference to E.D. recovery. You know?
I mean, is there ever a point at which you can be completely done with your eating disorder?
Excuse me and my cynicism, but would I be naive to think it will ever just go away for good if I ‘recover’?
I hope so.
It’s hard doing this, but it’s worse when I’m doing it completely alone- in every damn sense of the word- I have no one to reassure me, or even lie to me, which I wouldn’t even mind right now!
Ugh.. I just wish I had never got mixed up in all this sh*t to begin with!
