I'm doing 18 things
i’m scared that i won’t be able to do this. this is the hardest thing i’ve ever done. i love him more than the world. but…it’s completely 100% unhealthy. we fight all the time. even though he’s the person i get along least with in the world, he’s the only one i want to be with. if i could spend every day for the rest of life with him, i’d die living my life to the fullest. i love him, but at what cost? our love will never fade, but our will to make up after each fight is fading fast. this makes me sadder than anything. i’ll never be okay without him. :,(
caitnic09's Life List
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1. Try something new everyday
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2. see the northern lights
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3. run a marathon
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4. become bilingual
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5. Go snowboarding again
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6. get my rook pierced
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7. Find a place that feels like home
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8. make a snowman
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9. walk across the brooklyn bridge
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10. visit the 7 natural wonders of the world
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11. own a moon rock
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12. have a star named after me
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13. Go back to the mountains
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14. figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life
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15. Try meditation
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16. sleep under the stars
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17. write anonymous, loving post-its for strangers to find
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18. forgive
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How I did it
It made me
free 
How I did it: I went on a family vaction to Destin, Fl & while I was there I walked down to the beach about an hour or two after sunset. It was gorgeous. It made me feel so small compared to everything. The water was warm, the sand was cool, & the wind was blowing. I actually jumped into the water in the middle of the night. It was totally amazing. It was so dark you could barely tell where the sky stopped and the ocean began. I wish … Read how I did it…
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i will not cry ever. i refuse to ever be weak again. months of my life were wasted on crying b.c of one person who i let have power over me and my emotions. never again. i am strong.
