I took the job. I am excited. I am going to just work really, really hard and make my dreams come true.
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I interviewed at a great office. I would love to work there. I got the job offer but the startup fees are a lot more than I expected. I don’t know if I should just jump in and do it or wait a little while longer. It is such a gamble. I am super motivated and great with people but I just don’t have the money to pay for office space each month. If I didn’t sell a house for a couple of months I would be screwed!!! I don’t know what to do. It is my dream and I don’t want to let go.
So I guess one last try didn’t work. We are done. I have been on a couple of dates with a new guy but find myself constantly thinking of him. I have no idea why. I can go over the list of things that I want in life and he just doesn’t fit. Do people have to go through a certain designated amount of pain in their lives before they find happiness? I think that happiness is in your own hands and my problem is that I find a certain amount of comfort in being sad. I feel so much anxiety. I should go to the doctor and get some form of “medicine” that numbs me to all of this pain and uncertainty but then I will just walk through life in a daze and will not be able to look back on this time as my “difficult period.” I want to be able to really appreciate true happiness when and if I find it. I don’t really require a lot. I should require more. Maybe that is the entire problem. I need to write a list of all of the things I want in a partner and never settle. Time is my enemy. I have wasted so much of it and now it is laughing in my face as it races by. I continue to get older as nothing around me changes. I know that I have to be proactive in my life but there is a wall that I just can’t get over. I know what I need to do but actually taking action and doing something seems impossible to me.
