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I’ve had this goal for a couple years and I confess that I haven’t done a lot of active work toward it. But that I still remember quite a bit more than I did when I started.

Mostly it’s happened spontaneously while I was off doing other things. (Isn’t that the way of things all too often?)

I started meditating and having that regular practice of shutting up and listening has really helped- and not just this but also in generally being more functional.

My only complaint is that it seems like most of the really vivid memories I’ve dredged up are from one life in particular and they’re largely unhappy or even traumatic. I’ve worked through those issues and that’s helped me in the here and now but I’d dearly love some happy memories once in a while!

I can’t say as I’ve finished this but I do feel like I’ve made a whooole lot of progress. I’ve grown a lot since the last time I put an update here. And grown up a lot. I’ve also learned how to be happy a little more often. Not necessarily giddy-happy but more the calm accepting sort of internal happiness. Almost peace.

There’s still a lot of work to be done. Isn’t there always? But my internal state has improved so much it’s not even funny.

I am taking a class in illustrator this semester at college and I seem to have taken to it like a duck to water so I’m marking this done! It’s really awesome learning all the cool things I can do!

I finally got my license in September ‘06 (after having my permit for nearly five years…) It was awesome! And not nearly as hard as I thought it was going to be. The worst part was having to get up and go down to the DMV at like 6:30 am.

I did my morning pages this morning. I feel a lot more lucid now. I can tell that if I can stick with this, it’ll be incredibly helpful.

OMG OMG OMG We went to Glacier and it was amazing! Beautiful! Stunning! (I’m madly in love, can you tell?)

It was amazing! We only got to spend one afternoon at Yellowstone but I got to see Old Faithful twice. Yellowstone falls was really incredible too. Highly recommended!

I have decided that in order really accomplish my goal to have “enough” I am going to have to start with a current (small) definition of what “enough” is and work from there. So my current definition of “enough” is having enough to pay my bills and not have to worry about whether I have enough money in the bank to pay for the two-dollar fill-in-the-blank that I want this week.

I feel that I have made a lot of progress in the couple of months since I decided that this was a serious goal for me. I feel much more…. functional. I am learning not to panic over small things and working on not panicking on larger things.

I learned to play flute in middle school. It was great fun and a good experience. I still play even now (eight years later!).

I went last summer to the national in WV. I had an amazing experience. It was wonderful.

I went to the National in WV last summer. It was a beautiful and amazing experience. I want to go again this year! Don’t forget your blissware.