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So, am being interviewed. I just have to wait for all the external peeps to catch up, ie interviews and tests arranged for them, too, so the company can’t be accused of unfair practices.

I’m feeling okay about it. I mean, I really really want the job, and getting that across is surely half the battle? It’s a competency interview, and I’ve sketched out areas of work I want to talk about for each skill I have to demonstrate. So… not really prepared, but ready to move into action without getting stressed too early.

Bizarrely, I then had a really good day in current job. Extremely busy, but productively so. I realised I just hate not knowing what I’m doing. If I can get my head down and just get on with something, I’m happy. If I can be pointed in the right direction and told to figure something out, I’m very happy. Being asked to do something, with zero clue how to even start, is not happy. Plus, I really miss numbers, I’ve discovered.

Yup, ready for new job :)

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learn html

self-taught 2 days ago

I suppose that I’ve passed courses in C++ and java, I shouldn’t be too surprised that I picked html up pretty easily. In fact, taught myself in order to be able to ‘cheat’ the stupid CMS they gave us in my last job.

The website I’m trying to build right now, I’m trying to build from scratch, ie in code. I really don’t understand the other ways of doing this so well – so, am I weird, or just backwards!? ;)

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I want to want to! 2 days ago

It’s Sunday. There’s nothing on my ‘have to’ list, and everything on my ‘could do’ list. This should be a good thing, methinks, but I’m finding myself in that all too-familiar rut of not really wanting to do any of my ‘things’. Argh!! I mean, there are SO many things I want to achieve in my life, and yet on a quiet, rainy Sunday, I can’t seem to muster the smallest bit of enthusiasm! These are supposed to be my life goals, and yet not one of them would have me jumping out of bed with a passion to work on them. Bleugh.

What’s my problem? Largely I am just lazy. Life has become that list of ‘should be doings’: exercise, study, dragging myself to do something. I hate feeling like this – I’m WAY more sensible and everything, surely?!!

I need to work on it, obviously. Everything is either long-term, or doesn’t seem particularly important. Sure, I could sit and finish a card within the hour, but that’s not important. Or I could study – but I won’t see results for months or years. Heck, even the ‘phew’ of passing my exams didn’t exactly feel like a pinnacle of achievement, as I’d started slogging through the next lot.

Gawd, this is not a good mood to find yourself in of a morning, is it?! Caught between telling myself to just go do, and that bleugh feeling that it’s all just going through some set of motions. Eeep!

I wonder… is being stuck in limbo with job stuff behind at least some of this? Am I chipping away at some small edges, while the big picture is ignored? Or am I just swamped with too much choice, of things that won’t make any immediate difference?

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