but before that i’ll have to explore my country first.. and of course i should be with my loved one!
candicute's Life List
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2. be a doctor
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3. stop being angry all the time
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4. be tall
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5. kiss under water
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6. meet johnny depp
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7. go skinny dipping
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8. be a mermaid
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9. be a matchmaker
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10. be more optimistic
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11. believe in destiny
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12. stop lying
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13. learn to let go of a dream
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14. write a song that would top the charts
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15. stop procrastinating
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16. move on
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17. kiss you
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18. kiss someone i used to hate on the forehead
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19. live alone
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20. exercise regularly
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21. sky dive
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22. learn boxing
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23. make more friends
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24. become a better photographer
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25. travel around the world
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26. adopt a child
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27. Learn Spanish
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28. create my own recipe for a good cookie
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29. work abroad
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i dunno why.. i guess it’s the trend.. but i really want to get out of this hell hole and live away.. be free.. independent..
i have to say i’m feeling better now. after talking with him 3 weeks ago i dont feel pain anymore. we talked like two normal mature adults. i didnt even ask him why he did this to me. i think i’ve finally accepted it. could this mean i’ve finally moved on?
i was talking to a friend last night and he asked me if i’ve finally got over it. i haven’t really given it much thought lately. so i was surprised by the question. it was like i’ve forgotten i was depressed just a few weeks ago.
does not feeling pain and not thinking about it mean i’m over him?
but i am still not ready for another long distance relationship. it’s not that i’m still hoping we’d get back together, ‘cause i’m not. i don’t want him back. i just dont think i could trust someone again.. i mean, i’m still scared it’ll happen again. it was too painful and i don’t wanna feel that kind of pain again.
does being afraid mean i still haven’t move on? i just don’t want to expect much from people anymore. how do i know i’ve totally gotten over this? i think i already did.
i just don’t want to get into another relationship and the other person would suffer from my trust issues caused by a former lover. that would be unfair, right?
