candysays

ok being one hundred per cent honest i quit and put on weight instead. went on holiday and had a great time but i was ashamed to go on this. bt no im definitely gonna do it this time. the cutest guy likes me but im very self conscious which aint a good thing when he never makes me feel bad. so im obviously very un comfortable with my weight. so ive started hill walking with my crazy fitness friend and im goin to weight watchers with my aunt who lost three stone really quickly after years of bein unhappy. so it has to be done like

k i’m back on track. holiday in one month with the skinnies!!!! why would i leave it this late like?! k current weight: 169lbs. thats not good when facing the prospects of wearing a bikini in front of my skinny friends! and i mean skinny and toned and perfect!!! so i’m back on track due to pure fear. i’m hoping to realisically lose 7-10 lbs. i think thats reasonable ya? i hope so

k i’m back on the wagon! i’m gonna be good now cos i have a holiday in one month with three very skinny very beautiful girls and the thought of getting into a bikini infront of them makes me feel ill!!! anywho i’ve cut out bread and sugar and pasta’s!!! i’m eating mainly protein, drinking loadsa green tea and i’ve stopped eating after six in the evening cos i binge at night. going to the gym tomorrow with one of the skinnies i talked about. she’s my best friend and i love her to bits but oh my god am i green with jealousy!!! she’s my height and body shape and she’s the weight i should be!!!! very frustrating