A friend recently told me, and it came as an utter surprise, that he admired me a lot; I think he may have actually used the words “role model.” This is a person I have a great deal of admiration for, myself, which added to the shock. He said he admired me for standing up for what I thought was right, for going after things that would make me happy.
I said, “hah, you should really pick a more functional role model!” And he said I just needed to find my feet. We’re both adults here, so to get this kind of compliment was stunning.
Sep 16, 2008, 11:29PM PDT | 1 cheer | 1 comment
The past several months have been kinda brutal. Even my body feels bad; waking up to tight muscles, like I’d been trounced in a fight the previous day. I don’t look glowing and happy, I look gray. I have more coping skills than I’ve ever had, so I need to brush off the rusty ones and put them all into action, stat.
Sep 16, 2008, 10:18PM PDT | 0 comments
So, turns out being a bad friend is still the worst feeling in the world. I fucked this goal up kinda bad recently. My friends continue to mean the world to me, and stressing them, or doing anything to damage a relationship, is just the darkest, coldest feeling. The worst part of this particular situation is my complete powerlessness to right it.
I was getting hurt, too, but now I barely even care. I regret not being as supportive as I could’ve. Dark / sad times.
Aug 31, 2008, 08:40PM PDT | 0 comments
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