cath123

im drowing in the oxygen
as im flying out of the ocean
untie my wrists quick
hold my head over

ignore all my cries
there not just all lies
twist the rope
slit my wrists
end all of this

do you feel sick
its my fancy trick
i lick my lips dry
close my eyes
and watch you cry

i hope i die
in your eyes
and i hope you live forever
cause you’ll see me
through your eyes

Going to fast…
But I won’t stop running.
Will I trip and fall?
Fell…
Did you catch me?
I’m searching for the light.
With my eyes closed.
I could see it…if I opened them.
Don’t make me look.
Hold me…
As I struggle to leave.
Love me…
When I tell you to hate me.
Forgive me…
When I hurt you on purpose.
Don’t try to understand.
You don’t even know me.
Will I let you inside?
Or ever try to make you understand?
Even just a little…
I’m so sure you would leave.
I’m wrong in every way.
I wish you could see that.
You deserve more.
So just listen…
You don’t want me!
You think you do.
You don’t know how much I’ll hurt you.
How much I don’t want to.
I wreck what I want.
So I decide I don’t want you.
To save you from me.

Blood running through veins.
Breathing.
Yet blind.
You hear me?
Listen if you can.
They tell us how to feel.
Do we care what they say?
Do we think they care if we don’t?
What did they expect?
Look around you.
Use your eyes.
We all have problems.
Even make our own.
Sit and complain.
These things so simple.
Changed so EASILY.
Make a decision.
So simply.
We don’t.
What would that leave us with?
We would have to notice.
How selfish we are.
How we really don’t care.
About anyone or anything but ourselves.
Admit it takes effort for that.
So here I sit spewing these words.
As I have realized.
Most of this I do too.
So can I judge?
How pathetic even I am.
You can open your eyes.
You don’t though.
You would see it everywhere.
All the indifference, selfishness
Even the pure ignorance.
We don’t care anymore!
So is there even that to see?
Maybe there is because I think I see it.
You would think now that I see.
I change instantly.
What is the point though?
So I go back to what we all are doing.
It’s to much work to try now.
To open our eyes.
How many have realized this.
Did they change?
Did they even try to transform this world?
I guess…
You can say yes.
Then why is it worse.
Getting worse still.
I can answer that.
It brings me back to my point.
Nobody cares!
I’m tired of holding on to the belief.
One can change the world.
What else is there to try?
Is it possible to top the greats?
I wanted to once.
Of course I didn’t try.
I did figure it out.
How to change the world.
If everyone changed the wrong in their life.
Got it together.
Helped those that can’t help themselves.
What is left?
Make the realization.
We do not care.
Ok not true…sorry I lied.…
We care about ourselves.
Enough to not care about others.
To let everything and everyone on this earth Fall apart.
You know it’s true.
We all do it.
Even the ones that care.
Tell you the same.
What are we supposed to do?
Really!
If no one will change, cause no one will change.
I done trying.
I get shot to hell.
So I sit here.
Knowing that it’s all to simple.
Breathing.
Heart beating.
Blind.
Not caring.