I'm doing 32 things
I can’t remember a time in my life where I lived for myself. Actually lived. All this time, it has always been for school and my family. I know the latter is actually a good thing, but sometimes I just feel too close to my family. It’s difficult to explain. It seems all I’ve been living for is school and I’m so sick of it, but I keep telling myself it’ll all be worth it later. But that’s later. It never helps in the now.
I put so much into my family, it’s a routine that takes all of my energy away. I live for them everyday, but at the end of the day, I feel drained of myself. Where did I go? What happened to me today? It’s too late before I realize I could have changed something in my daily plans. Maybe get out a little. Go somewhere with other people outside of my home. But like I said, it’s a cycle. I cannot control it sometimes.
But I need to. I can’t live this life only dedidcated to school and my family. I need to stop settling for everything else and work on myself. To live for myself and not exist for everything else.
