I'm doing 36 things
Since I’ve been old enough to hold a job, I have found that I like things. Big things, little things, ugly things, pretty things. I shop when I’m sad. when I’m happy. when i’m nostalgic. when I’m bored. This summer, I began my journey of a new career that unfortunatly is commission based only. I’ve been without income going on 4 months now and have come to terms with how “things” have taken over my life, my income, and my happiness. I added this goal, not only out of need, but as a way of changing who i am, how i think, and how i spend. i have begun this slowly. No television. One light in the house on at a time. Shopping for generic food only. I haven’t bought new clothes now in over 3 months which is a LIFETIME in my past reality. I don’t eat out anymore and I refuse to wash my jeans until I’ve worn them a few times. This has been one of the hardest parts of me going through my lack of job/income-I can’t afford to go out and have a drink with friends or see a movie no matter how many times they ask. I can’t afford to go and drive for the fun of it like I used to-i can’t afford the gas. My emotions have desolved into a feeling of total and utter guilt with ever dollar that I spend and with ever swipe of my debit card. ‘Least to say, my mood has a long haul in leveling out to being the happy person I once was… but until then, I’m going to go eat some Ramen.
cemill2's Life List
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1. let people in
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2. accept that harry potter is over
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3. Live and Work Abroad
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4. own a hybrid car
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5. live outside the united states
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6. not be a burden
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7. Have a beer in Dublin
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8. move to england
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9. learn to draw
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10. start a photo journal - take at least a photo a day to represent my life
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11. Stop buying things from Wal-Mart
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12. be frugal
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13. Become Financially Independent
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14. never get married
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16. Stop wasting money
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17. be happy
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18. quit saying I'm sorry
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19. buy a bicycle
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20. not hold in emotion
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21. Send a postcard to Postsecret
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22. get out of this rut
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23. pay off my debt
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24. Date a geek
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25. die young
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26. Write more thank you notes
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27. complete a quote book
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28. Never grow up.
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29. Get a job I like
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30. meet kurt halsey
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31. experience grief
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32. appreciate art
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33. do it right
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34. go on a hike
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35. brew some tea
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36. figure myself out
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Recent entries
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2 years ago
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2 years ago
Being happy can be one of the hardest things a person can try to do. I don’t think it will happen for myself for a long while, but one of these days, I will wake up with a smile. :)
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2 years ago
One of my biggest dreams that I know will never come true is me up and moving on a whim to England, Ireland, or the like. I know it’s rediculous and silly, but a girl can dream, right? :) so why not save up some money and just go and drink a beer and pretend for a day.
