charleneelizabeth

I joined a lil over a month ago!!

It was so worth it…I don’t know where I get the motivation to go all the time, but I’m doing great & I can really see differences!! =]

Just hope I can keep it up 4ever!

[Kid Rock]
Livin’ my life in a slow hell
Different girl every night at the hotel
I ain’t seen the sun shine in 3 damn days
Been fuelin’ up on cocaine and whisky
Wish I had a good girl to miss me
Lord I wonder if I’ll ever change my ways
I put your picture away
Sat down and cried today
I can’t look at you while I’m lyin’ next to her
I put your picture away, sat down and cried today
I can’t look at you, while I’m lyin next to her

[Sherly Crow]
I called you last night in the hotel
Everyone knows but they wont tell
But their half hearted smiles tell me
Somethin’ just ain’t right
I been waitin’ on you for a long time
Fuelin’ up on heartaches and cheap wine
I ain’t heard from you in 3 damn nights
I put your picture away
I wonder where you been
I can’t look at you while I’m lyin’ next to him
I put your picture away
I wonder where you been
I can’t look at you while I’m lyin’ next to him
I saw ya yesterday with an old friend

[Kid Rock]
It was the same ole same “how have you been”

[Both]
Since you been gone my worlds been dark & grey

[Kid Rock]
You reminded me of brighter days

[Sheryl Crow]
I hoped you were comin’ home to stay
I was headed to church

[Kid Rock]
I was off to drink you away

[Both]
I thought about you for a long time
Can’t seem to get you off my mind
I can’t understand why we’re living life this way
I found your picture today
I swear I’ll change my ways
I just called to say I want you to come back home
I found your picture today
I swear I’ll change my ways
I just called to say I want you to come back home
I just called to say, I love you come back home

I’m pretty much over these people, but I have 2 stop thinking about them & caring so much.

I have a restraining order on one of my ex’s & it’s ending soon. He has been still tryin 2 contact me & such. I hear stories about what he’s doing in his life from him through emails or through mutual friends. I NEVER want 2 be with him again!, but it still hurts a little knowing that he’s with someone else & such after being with him 4 almost 3 years. I just need 2 stop hearing things from or about him & I’ll be fine. The restraining order obviously isn’t working that well so I don’t know what else I can do…

I dated another guy after that one 4 about 5 months. He helped me get going 2 court & everything for my ex. We were very close & had so much in common. I don’t know if we swept into 2 fast with 2 many feelings 4 each other or what. He was going through a lot at the time also & it started getting hard between us so we said we we’re gona take a break. We talk every so often, but we got into a fight bc he still has some of my stuff that I want back. He sent me a text on Christmas after not talking 2 him 4 2 months, which was very surprising. I got an email, than some more texts. I returned the last text that just read “I’m sorry”. We talked 4 a while & I came 2 find out that he’s not happy, he misses me & has been thinking about me a lot! He’s also dating someone else. I’m pretty sure I don’t want 2 be with him again either, but again it hurts knowing that’s he with someone & not happy. It was bad timing 4 us, but I want people 2 be happy. I don’t want 2 hold grudges or ne thing with ne one bc u never know when u might need them or something. I want 2 talk 2 him occasionally 2 know he’s ok (esp. since he’s a cop) but I also don’t want 2 bc I don’t want 2 know if he’s with someone or not. That’s a big problem I have I guess & I need 2 try & get over that.

It all takes time, but I strongly believe I can do it!
I started really thinking 2 myself that I need 2 stop thinking bout them so much & it’s been working so far. I’m not letting them get in the way & I can see a difference when I talk 2 other guys.
This is working 4 the better so far :)