~Charlotte~

Doing good so far I think : )

- Have bought birthday presents for all my girl friends on time (for once!) this year
- Have made an effort to be more social – going to the theatre, days out, pub quizes, cinema etc
- Made a note of all important dates so I can wish luck or ask how it went
- Offered a shoulder to cry on adn a bed to stay in
- I’m hopeless with giving advice, but I do try!

Well, I have definitely improved anyway. Now to visit an old friend who has moved away….

I’m truly fed up of terrible body image and the ‘diet’ I have been on as long as I can remember – when in reality I probably don’t even need to lose weight.

I just calculated my BMI at 23.1 on the NHS website, where they clearly tell me this is healthy, so why does my brain disagree – why do I care so much about the way I look when apparently there is nothing to worry about?

I know deep down I don’t necessarily need to lose weight, but I do want to be able to say I am doing my best to be healthy – physically and mentally.

I don’t want to be counting calories all the time, living in fear of the scales after that glass of wine or slice of cake I had – It’s ok to do these things in moderation!! I’m young for gods sake, I just need to accept myself for who I am and concentrate more on quality of life than quantity of fat ; )

I think all my low self esteem issues are somehow founded on my poor body image which is I’m sure is distorted – I am a UK size 10-12 where as the UK average is 14-16. So not only am I completely normal, but according to the stats I am also below average.

The plan is to align what goes on inside my head with reality – I can see the facts on paper, so now to instil those facts deep within my subconscious!!

So here starts my journey to be healthy and happy…

I am scared about this one… Have agreed to join the half marathon team with work for our local run. Its on 6th September, so 4 months of training to work up to it.

I am terrified! I just ran a 10k last Sunday, so effectively I am almost halfway there, so 4 months to double my endurance. Went from nothing to 10k in a couple of months so I know if I am consistent and determined with my training I’ll be fine…. I hope!

But still – Aaaaahhhhh!!!!!

Looking into getting a Garmin GPS/heart rate type watch for training – anyone use one or have any recommendations?

xxx