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Once I get started picking, it seems like I can’t prevent myself from picking the next day… and the next… and the next…

I hate the way my skin gets flaky and it just doesn’t look right no matter what I try to do to cover it up.

I hate my FOREHEAD. I guess the skin there is thinner or something, or maybe I’m just more self-conscious about it and that’s what makes my forehead look especially bad when I pick at it. Thing is, I’m prone to blackheads and I get tiny ones on my forehead all over the place. They’re invisible except from like an inch away, but guess who likes to sit and stare at her skin an inch away from the mirror? rolls eyes Yeah, that’s my real weakness. I can pop the blackheads out of my nose and a couple of days later it looks fine again (not that I want to do that either, but,) but my forehead takes forever to recover and it’s SUCH an awful temptation.

So. Tomorrow is another Day One. I was discouraged, but now after reading people’s entries here I’m inspired again. Let’s do it!

I tend to pick in streaks. Anyone else do this? Like, I can go for a few days or a week without picking, but once I slip and have a really bad picking session (which always happens eventually), it makes my skin all red and bumpy and it actually creates way more acne than was there in the first place, meaning that I feel like I have to go back and “clean out” my skin that’s already quite damaged, making it yet worse, and worse, and worse. When I get like this (like I was today) I tend to pick pretty badly every hour or two – it’s not like I’m even doing it every night, it’s multiple times a day. I’m going to have to just deal with the extra spots (that I created myself) without picking them afresh and break this cycle, but it’s so hard. It’s like my hands aren’t my own. I’m really not looking forward to waking up tomorrow morning and having the realization that I have to try to cover up all of the damage I did today.

The good news though: I made it six days last week and for three of those days I was off concealer, wearing no makeup at all. It felt great. Since I’ve done it before, I know I can do it again… eventually…

Keep at it everyone. If you slip, don’t be too hard on yourself. There will be more opportunites to make better choices.