charmarba




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  1. 1. learn to paint
    1,158 people
  2. 2. stop throwing clothes on the floor
    884 people
  3. 3. go cow tipping
    1 entry
    88 people
  4. 4. look good in a bikini
    1 entry
    539 people
  5. 5. jump on my trampoline and swim in my pool naked!
    1 person
  6. 6. Shower in a waterfall.
    426 people
  7. 7. only eat when I'm hungry
    539 people
  8. 8. fall in love again
    1,733 people
  9. 9. be asked for my autograph
    1 entry . 3 cheers
    31 people
  10. 10. Kiss in the rain
    2 cheers
    14,625 people
  11. 11. have sex on the beach
    1 entry
    252 people
  12. 12. Find a church where I feel like I belong.
    2 people
  13. 13. lose 50 pounds
    1 entry
    2,493 people
  14. 14. Learn to surf
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    7,375 people
  15. 15. be a health nut
    5 people
  16. 16. make out with 2 guys in 1 day
    1 person
  17. 17. get the hell out of Ohio
    1 entry
    2 people
  18. 18. Play spin the bottle
    1 entry
    448 people
  19. 19. Learn Japanese
    1 entry
    9,751 people
  20. 20. meet my soulmate
    657 people
  21. 21. graduate from college
    6,134 people
  22. 22. lead someone to Christ
    248 people
  23. 23. Read all of Shakespeare's plays
    141 people
  24. 24. go to a drive in movie
    153 people
  25. 25. be in a broadway musical
    85 people
  26. 26. Visit every country in the world
    368 people
  27. 27. get in shape
    9,387 people
  28. 28. visit all 50 states
    7,156 people
  29. 29. Find a balance between the things I want to do and the things I need to do
    2,369 people
  30. 30. own an ancient artifact
    1 person
  31. 31. become ambidextrous
    2 entries
    868 people
  32. 32. build a secret garden
    1 entry
    6 people
  33. 33. Write and record an album
    1 entry
    254 people
  34. 34. Watch the sun rise and set all in the same day
    1 entry
    23 people
  35. 35. own an island
    1 entry
    274 people
  36. 36. be a sexy nurse!!!
    2 people
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get the hell out of Ohio
As soon as I finish my nursing degree... 9 months ago

... i’m leaving … FOR GOOD!



kiss my teacher
fun back then... painful now 20 months ago

i got really intimate with a teacher friend of mine after i graduated and he was no longer my teacher. he was young, handsome, and a very kind person. it was really fun at the time because i had developed a close relationship/friendship with him and i honestly felt that i loved him. it was my dream come true… and i never thought it would actually happen until it did. there was a real connection there and i don’t know if he loved me too, but i like to think he did. but either way, he was too afraid of sacrificing his reputation for me. he ended up breaking my heart by dating another girl and marrying her a couple months after he ended things with me. they moved very quickly with the whole thing. and the worst part… he was still in contact with me. we talked on the phone almost everyday and he never had the guts to tell me they were getting married, even though he knew that i considered him a best friend.

i had invested a lot of my heart into him and it was a dream i was ready to give up, but then he came along and gave me hope. then he crushed me again. it was the deepest pain i’ve ever felt… and i still feel it from time to time, even though these things happened a long time ago.

for a lot of you, it seems like a fun little fantasy, but for me it was real… and it wasn’t real in the sense that it really happened, but that it was real just like falling in love with anybody else. only with him it felt 100 times more shitty when it ended, because i knew that most or all of the reason it couldn’t last was the circumstances under which we met.

so don’t get your hearts tangled in a mess like this, girls. i’m not saying that i regret it, but it’s a hard fall to recover from.



be a missionary teacher
i did it... 20 months ago

i did this before and i was not a certified teacher. there are schools out there that desperately need help and they will hire uncertified teachers as long as they come through an organization that they trust.

and i don’t think it matters for you to be absolutely sure as to why you are going to teach in the mission field. if you feel like God is calling you, then you go! you don’t ask questions question if you should really do it or not. the only thing you need to ask yourself is “do i feel that God is calling me?” if so, then you should go… even if you are not sure how prepared you are spiritually. God will work that out in you. sometimes, people actually end up finding a truer, more clear picture of who God is while they are in the mission field. sometimes, they find exactly what they expected. but regardless, it is always a life-changing experience. and if you are there for the right reasons, you will always reach someone for Jesus.



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