With all the lifes expenses these days I am not sure if I am going to even make the cut. I have to pay 525.00 a month for rent, $40.00 for food, and now 331.00 for a course for one whole week. My job I only make so much with it, seriously I am going insaine. Anybody has advice that would be great.
Once again I spoke to soon. The man that I fell incredibly head over heals for is nothing but a liar, cheater, and over all scum. Now this isn’t a entry for bashing but i’m hurt. I literally am burnt down to the core. I no longer have a heart for the little things and I don’t always see sunny days, but, if there is one thing about me I will not stop until I find a man who loves me. For everyone who has cheered my goal, I’m sorry, I honestly thought that the man who purposed to me would never leave a sloppy trail of nude photos of girls,a email and password to a dating site (that was recently used), and numerous of email’s to girls, let me just add that one of them he had a relationship with!. So i’m not giving up on falling inlove and giving love a try one more time.
So as of September 2011 it will be offically my last year of college. Which means after college let’s pay off a 14 grad debt. My college is basically pretty far from where I orginally live but what are you going to do? I wanted to get away. And getting away this is the price you pay right? Well my issue is I want to save! Save every nickle, dime, penny, dollar, and so on.
Well, i’m just like everyone else in this type of situation, I’m 18 graduated from high school, and now in pretty much the heart of my city going to college. The only event that I have attended was my school’s orientation, here’s me thinking that I wanted to start fresh make all these good friends and become a new person. But anyways I went to orientation, it was hotter then hot outside, my nice hair went all poofy and I looked like shit… complete shit. anyways so yeah, the whole day wasn’t how I was hoping it would be like, and I ended up meeting people which let me say that I really wanted to avoid meeting. Anyways besides that I am kind of nervous for classes to begin I already have to read out of my text books joy, anyways I want to make it threw college with fun and hard work. anyways I am Jessica and I approve this as my own goal
Besides the fact that I just graduated from high school, college is very different from what I have witness at orientation..anyways my point is.. if you want to sign up for something, then sign up for it.. now my problem.. where do you sign up for it? did i miss the deadline already? probably I did.. because everyone knows about these things except for moi! well maybe people don’t know about these things, but so far I only attended orientation and I didn’t really have a great time, from what I wanted too have. From my understainding is if I joined soccer id be sitting on the bench, i’m actually horrible at it. but who cares right? I actually enjoy the sport even though im shit! so i’m gunna go after what I want and try out for any sport, possibly cheerleading if I haven’t missed the deadline. This is Jessica and I’m making this a goal!!!!!!!
When it comes to someone who you really love, you want the very best for that person. I have this friend, who I have ” history” with decided to take a path which isn’t really great for anyone. He started out with doing weed (knowing that it is a “gateway drug” that will lead into everything) So, it’s been 2 years from when he started, and he’s rotting away. He does weed everyday from aside whatever else he takes. Just recently he got arrested from having adderall on him. I’m from canada and hes from the states.. and in the states, its considered drug abuse for having that kind of drug on him, so i recently started to talk to him, and i really wish i had the right to tell him sober up. or i really wish that i was there to make him sober up. I feel like i have no right to tell him (which i don’t) but still it’s a feeling that i get worried from. Having a big heart for people is great, but when you still love that person it feels like a knife cutting you, it simply hurts.
So yeah. I’m going to be broke… freaking out on which grants to apply for.. majority of them are for red seal here in Canada. but i need book grants for school. My parents keep nagging about it. so.. im lost and i cant find any!
so Im going to college, and i weigh 140 now.. and id loveee to weigh 135 before i move.. even though the move and all the walk and stuff will make me loose less.. i still rather get rid of some fat. i feel like a fat ass because i use to work out every monday for one whole hour at a zumba class but, starting of june to present i have been busy, my thighs are huge now.. and i feel pretty fat. ( dont be commenting my post and saying im NOT fat.. you havent seen the whole me :P ahah)
I really need to learn how to cook because, I’m off to college in the fall, and i’ll be living with my wicked fairy godmother, who is never home. So.. cooking is one thing i need to provide for myself when I move. I always have this interest of cooking.. this very big and inspiring dream ahha. I always wanted to learn french cousine or anything for that matter. aha. i saw the movie julie and julia and that movie has really inspired me to learn how to cook.. but the problem is.. my mom doesnt want to teach me. she said she was going to buy me a crock pot.. but she wants me to learn how to use it!.. now how am i going to use this thing.. if.. i dont know how to use it.. ohh boy. this should be interesting.
Okay, so in Canada, our licence goes like this: G1 (driving with an adult), G2 (driving on your own or with an adult), and G (driving with who ever you please. And I am going from my G1 to my G2…. which driving in my hometown = a wreck… people don’t care.. they just want to kill you basically. So.. I have been through driving school, and barely practicing with the parents, because they don’t care… so when I drive, I get so stressed… because my parents are douches.. on the road and can’t teach me anything….So this tuseday.. I’m going to fail.. completely…
It’s my last year of high school, and I really want to do one last thing to remember it by joining a sport. In grade nine I did the play which was grease, i was a cheerleader.. so it wasnt bad of course, but not its my last year only 3 months left! can you believe it? ahah. so i want to atleast try to make the try out, which is when we come back from march break, im kinda nervous yet ahaha, i have glasses so i dont know how this sport will work out for me.. Im not really a sportive person, im into dancing and golfing but anything physical count me out! i mean i would do cheerleading but im not fit to be a flyer or a lifter, and i cant do back flips or splits haha, or anything so we will see how it goes..
Hey, so I know this is way early but prom is on June 11th, I finally found my prom dress and all I need to do is some alterations and get the shoes with the right accessories! However, now is a good time to start a man hunt to pick and choose wisely, BUT! heres the problem.. you would think that guys from my school is actually legit to go out with? HELL NO! It’s just so stupid.. I think I actually give up on guys from my school.. because there is no guy from my school is a man to ask a girl out to prom. But than again like i said it might be a bit too early.. so my friend told me.. why don’t you put a want in a dating site! get a male order prom date! ahaah.. oh boy it’s going to be like that funny movie “the wedding date” So I did and i am giving it a shot. Anyways got any suggestions hit it up!
Oh by the way i am going to post my dress :)
i remember a time when i was going through depression and my school put me through a physcologist, but this lady really helped me her name was Jaquline. She would support me, and it would make me feel 10x more content. but ever since she left the school board, im starting to feel a little down again. Im trying convince my parents to possibly let me see her.
It started out at school when i was having a fit trying to struggle into changing classes, one of my guidence counslors convince me to switch into a photography class, haha, i certianly had my ups and downs but over all i love my work, and i cannot wait to take it again.
Okay so it was this night where i got cranky because i needed to do homework, and i just came out of my work so i was tired and hungry and i got mad at him.. i called him things that were.. well.. so not called for… ( i called him a asshole ><!!) i wish i didnt split it, but i got mad.. so now i just want to say to him dad i love you
OH yeah, i dont wanna die and turn into some stupid zombi, they are soo ugly… well it feels like im better off dead but somewhat living, and if i were to survive the zomie attack i would be my very own hero.. :) be fithly rich mwhaha just kiddin….
we just recently put our dog down :’( back in august and ever since i see everyone walking their dogs, i miss having someone to cuddel up to and someone just to rely on. walking alone is well.. pointless. im just praying i get another dog, but it will never be the same
I need a new best friend other than a guy being my best friend, most of my friends moved !! if it will take me a long time i guess so
just for once maybe some guy in a band will write a song about me, HA yeah right who will ever give a shit about me to write a song about me, :( sighs i guess i will put it on my 25 things
