i remember a time when i was going through depression and my school put me through a physcologist, but this lady really helped me her name was Jaquline. She would support me, and it would make me feel 10x more content. but ever since she left the school board, im starting to feel a little down again. Im trying convince my parents to possibly let me see her.
It started out at school when i was having a fit trying to struggle into changing classes, one of my guidence counslors convince me to switch into a photography class, haha, i certianly had my ups and downs but over all i love my work, and i cannot wait to take it again.
Okay so it was this night where i got cranky because i needed to do homework, and i just came out of my work so i was tired and hungry and i got mad at him.. i called him things that were.. well.. so not called for… ( i called him a asshole ><!!) i wish i didnt split it, but i got mad.. so now i just want to say to him dad i love you
i know its only middel of the winter but, i got to do some major spring cleaning, my closet and drawers, are a mess i got disorganized pajmama tops to bottoms,un-matching socks, and not to mention my dresser is broken, know thats my desser, but its time for my closet last summer i bought two bins that stored my tee shirts and what not into them, but i got movies and junk roaming around in my closet, i think know its time to get CLEANED, im going all out i want 100% organize in my room other wise, my life will be cramped
I need friends thats mostly what i am going to say.
over this summer of 08 my friends moved. one moved to the uk another moved 20 to 30 mins outside of my town not to mention goes to a different school. ive lost so many friends to floods. even people i hang around with now, dont really seem to care for me, dont really take initative to show how much they are my friends
OH yeah, i dont wanna die and turn into some stupid zombi, they are soo ugly… well it feels like im better off dead but somewhat living, and if i were to survive the zomie attack i would be my very own hero.. :) be fithly rich mwhaha just kiddin….
we just recently put our dog down :’( back in august and ever since i see everyone walking their dogs, i miss having someone to cuddel up to and someone just to rely on. walking alone is well.. pointless. im just praying i get another dog, but it will never be the same
I need a new best friend other than a guy being my best friend, most of my friends moved !! if it will take me a long time i guess so
just for once maybe some guy in a band will write a song about me, HA yeah right who will ever give a shit about me to write a song about me, :( sighs i guess i will put it on my 25 things
yeah its hard. but i think that if im focused on something else i look at my nails and boom !! there they are long and gorgus, and than i trim them and they take forever to grow. so yeah this is another silly goal for my self
EW okay, my mom isnt paying for new frames these years, BUT she is willing to get me my very own pare of personal sunglasses ahahahah. :). but it still ticks me off im back at school with the shitty pare of frames :(
i would buy them if i had my very own insurance :P
TO even WALK in healz in possible for me :(, and i love highheals,
:(. awhh.. so okay so once i learn than i will run in my very own stilettos. so that is my very own goal in my life :)
i am one of the mose boring teen. i dont really go out, i work and drive and thats the most extent of my life. but i would just love to find someone to sneek out. and party all night.
well im not the godess of reacting with grace from anything, even if its underpressure im a wreak, if i could do this goal than my life would be made. but i think if anything becomes a panic i will try my best to be gracefull and patient in every situation
i want to fall in love for the first time and last time !!, the last time i thought i was in love, i guess not !. ugh if i could met someone who was more like me who has very same interests, or similar. it would be very fun. i want to met a man who is different but who has something that no other person will see but me. i want to be kissed outside in the rain when its pouring down. i want to be holded tightly, i want to feel wanted by that person. i would want him to take me out. but occasionally stay in and relax and cuddle. whatever love is i want to find it, it feels like im going fishing with no worms or a rod, i have a ride down there a boat, but no bate,no nothing. i just want the love i never had before.
i think its now time to end this sillyness of people judging other people who are different colors of skin, it really makes me mad when someone makes a joke about others people cultur. but what they dont realize is that there human, just like everyone else in this world. why should it matter if our skin color different. i think its now time to end the war of racism. and start living in todays world.
for me this goal was worth doing, even though its not a different states its still like a hour away from my old town, but it feels good, i moved this friday, all day saterday i was looking around. i had a on the spot job interview ahah ( got the job randomly.. well its because its the same job at my old town). so its all set. and now today im going grocery shopping, and finish unpacking 2 more things ! i love this, and it was work doing. i might concider doing it again
it just drives me insaine when you think people are you true friends and than get pissy the nexts, what else umm friends who use you for things, but growing up and now being very selective of my friends because i cant trust people i meet these days, umm what else there…. anyways i have this one friend who is pissed because first of all i said maybe we can hang on friday, my godmother who i havent seen in like what ages !! calls and wanted me to vist her, so like what was i going to say no ?, i havent seen her, i miss loving family that wants to keep in touch of everything. so i said yeah sure why not, anyways i messaged my friend on facebook saying hey maybe we can hang out another time, my aunt wants me to go to see her this friday and saterday, so we can hang out when ever im off, and the responce was kay whatever you dont need friends anyways, and i was like what the fuck. okay i have family who i havent seen in forever okay you are not part of my family you are a friend. but i guess not because true friends understaind everything, a true friend wouldnt say harmfull things.
ahha i work at the mandarin and when i walk into the little room from putting plates and crap back they tend to all speek chinese and im like what the hell are they talking about, i wish i knew what they were saying, most of the other people say they are talking trash and the weridest thing i wouldnt be suprised some people there are the most rudest people ever and no fesnse people that come in too
im nervous and im only going into grade 11, and in grade 12 i need to apply to collages, oh boy i just hope i get into one of them
