but I love it.
but he makes it difficult to be understanding sometimes. And sometimes I find it difficult to believe that we have the same parents because we had all had a wonderful childhood with caring and loving parents that did the best they could. How come then my sisters and I grew up to be independent, respectful and resourceful and he turned out needy, resentful and hurtful? I actually dont mind him too much, he can be funny and generous, but he can snap at any time and just be so cruel. I always get the feeling with him that everything comes at a price, like he’ll be kind and loving one moment so you let your guard down and tell him something about yourself and then the next thing you know he uses it against you. I can take it most of the time but he throws a lot of crap to my younger sister who can be very sensitive. I’m not saying we have to be best friends, i think, mostly I would like to talk about him with pride instead of bitterness…and not have to tread carefully when I see him. Most of all though, most of all, I want my parents to stop defending him so much. I just dont want to hear like I’ve heard so many times in the past “be the bigger person”. But I guess that’s what parents are supposed to do, right? Anyway enough for tonight.
...until I met my new flatmate. Wow, she can shop up a storm! And all designer as well. Her wardrobe is amazing and she is so generous and not fussy about sharing clothes as well – I’m in Scanlon & Theodore heaven.
However I did buy a beautiful dress that I’m in love with for my citizenship ceremony, it’s a naughty but nice kind of dress and is totally divine.
YAY!!! I am now Australian. Had my ceremony last night and got my certificate. I sung the national anthem, waved the Australian flag and pledged my allegiance to Australia. It was actually a lot of fun. I got a little stuffed koala and a medallion?!
I officially become an Australian citizen on the 10th of May, 2007. I originally wanted to become a citizen just so I could get HECS for uni, but now it has come to mean so much more. I guess it’s because for a long time I have felt that i am just on one big extended holiday. I cant remember when I actually started thinking I would continue to make my life here and the emotional leap to call this country my home (for now anyway!!!). sigh...but you know I will always be a NZer and this doesnt mean I have to pick a footy team either!! Going out for dinner with all my Aussie mates after the ceremony…Turkish restaurant, of course.
I’ve always wanted to see these guys play live. have loved them for so long. They played a few weeks ago in Melbourne and were awesome. Kim Deal rocks.
I am getting a new flatmate next week and guess what? he does swing dancing! Was a total plus when I interviewed him last weekend…oh and he also had a car which was also a bonus.
I agree we need to strike when the iron is hot but perhaps just a little more time? I also agree that we should do something original. here are a couple of ideas my friends and I came up with after a couple of drinks on Friday night:
-Miming Marcel Marceau style
-Everyone give a flower to a stranger
-walking in slow mo
-breakdancing
-mexican wave (in protest to the ban at the MCG!)
-YMCA dance
If though we do go ahead on Thursday 15 March, then perhaps we could change location to Fed Square? The City Weekly magazine is celebrating its 10th birthday there with a free concert so not only will there be plenty of people around but there will also be media (I work for the community newspapers/magazines division of Fairfax). Thoughts?
This is a great little restaurant, now when I go out with friends in this area we always end up here…cant go past the Quan88 special sauce and the stuffed eggplant. Yum. I’m getting hungry just thinking about it.
Australia has accepted me as one of their own…god help them. All I have to do now is wait for my letter to invite me to a ceremony. Cant believe this has happened so quickly.
Decided on a theme: “Aaron Spelling” – just not a date yet! How’s that for priorities?! Ha ha. Going to turn our living room into the Love Boat and I’m going as Isaac the bartender…
I admit now that I dont know what I’m doing, which is why I’m givin up this goal…i dont know where things are going but i’m open to see how things will turn out. I told him i was leaving him last night (for all the right reasons) and things just went in reverse. It’s time to realise that I have no control over things and it’s ok.
