chinmayi

I did a major full organ 30 day cleanse in January. Def a great way to start off the new year. Since then it has been a rollercoaster of emotions. Not what I anticipated, however, the more I add proper supplementation, and substract processed foods, the more sensitive I am becoming. Even physically for that matter, however, given my sensitive nature already I expected that. Now I can’t even go a few days with eating gluten without getting a migraine. Not to self: new association, gluten=days in bed not working, making no money, hard time paying bills, all the while in excruciating pain. Blow that picture up…..it ain’t worth it!

Yard completed, somewhere round the bout of November time actually. Still some minor projects I suppose, if I were to be honest, but more or less like buying patio furniture. And in the current state, that will take some months longer…maybe by June…hmmm….

The eight month usual has occured. My hearts doors flew open like the swinging doors of a saloon. Alas, only to be kicked in the ass by them on the way out. Though my attempts to me still seem to be improving, my boyfriends over the years still turn into friends, a bond strong indeed, but agreed, the love is not enough. The question as to why I hold it in so sacred, so solitary is yet to be answered. The obvious fears seem just that, too obvious, but the patterns are not only identical, I am finding more depth in my choices everyday. Perhaps one day I will discover, why I never show my love to my lover.