Its all well and fine to have this goal but in the long run how do u really know if your supposed to hold on or just let go? Like I’v always thought that i’d never let my bf go and i still think this but sumtimes I think that maybe he secretly wants me to let go. He’s constantly stressed and i can never fix things for him and its like Im just something extra for him to worry about. I dont like being an extra worry. He says i make things better but do i really?? I really dont know anymore. It sucks. Maybe once schools over itll all be alright again lol.
Oct 29, 2008, 01:38PM PDT | 1 cheer | 2 comments
Iv decided I definately dont wanna go back there. Its just a memory now and its like i never even lived there. NZ is my new life and identity. The only reason id ever go back is to introduce my family to my bf and even that would be a strain because its somewhere I tried so hard to escape from and now have. Its not a nice place except maybe for the scenery.
Oct 28, 2008, 05:48PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
So its spring, still at school and i so wish i could just be out there in nature just having sum space. There isnt any really really good climbing oppertunities here unless you count going rock climbing inside. It’s definately on my agenda to get out there and climb. I want to build up my strengh and do what i love.
Oct 28, 2008, 05:41PM PDT | 0 comments
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