chocoteapot

as the title suggests, i’ve always wanted to lose weight…latley though, its been a bit hard, because i havent exactly been getting on with my family, so i find myself comfort eating most of the time. But last night i decided to go on a healthy diet, and even though idnt have a gym membership ir anything, im going to excercise at home…well im going to try to.
i dont eat huge portions, i think its just i that i keep going back for more even though im really full…..i tend to eat more when im under stress, and due to the situation with my mother where shes all ‘annoyed’ at me and the fact i have exams in january doesnt really make this the best of times to go on a diet…well i suppose if i can do this..lose weight, make up with my mother, and kick ass on my exams i can do almost anything…
im having a bit of trouble controling myself…like today, i managed not to eat anything i didnt need…yet at about 9pm i found myself binging on a few biscuits and some toast, cause my mother wakled through the door…which for some odd reason really made me go Grrr…
anyhoos….tomrow shall be a better day, im going out for a bike ride…might make me feel better…
i just dont understand why i cant just stp eating for a few days…live off water and just chew gum as a substitue…
bah…its so easy to eat and eat and put on weight, but when it comes to taking it off..its soo hard…

ok this guy, i’ve liked him on and off for the past couple of years now, and its like the last 5 days left of school before we go onto study leave, and recently i’ve had these really strong feelings for him, and i dont know if im just over asnalysing the situation cause i like him, but i think thes giveing me hints too…how do i make sure, i mean im a shy person especally when it comes to guys, and now im just very confused about him.
i only have five days to suss this thing out..grr…what do i do, im not a very out going person so if i suddenly start talking to him at school its gona make seem a bit…well wierd reallly, if i ask him staright out and if i’ve got it wrong…then im and idiot anyway…what do i do?