OMG!!! I almost have it. My ‘trill’ is far from being adequate to that of a native Spanish-speaker but I’m learning. I got a lot of help from this website as well:
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...sigh I’ve had to take a step back, unfortunately. I am eating fish and seafood again. This makes me sad. I wish I had the money to be healthy and cut meat and other animal products out of my diet, but I can’t. I’m just a poor ol’ vegetarian.
Geeez… Sometimes it gets difficult to look within yourself and figure yourself out. I am trying to do everything I can to look at things with an unbiased eye, but it is very difficult. I am, however, finding out who I am. Getting past this pseudo-need to excuse our behavior when we do something that is fundamentally wrong is one of the most important parts of opening yourself up. Even if that means taking consequences, which it usually does. I think that’s really the biggest difficulty in spirituality, accepting the consequences for what you have (and haven’t) done. It may not seem beneficial, but I think It’ll keep a drive and an ambition inside of you. If you want to look at it lightly though, think of having a degree or amount of karma to burn off. Now that doesn’t mean that we can say, “well I kept that watch I found, so I’ll donate money to charity.” This the kind of reasoning I am trying so hard to do away with. That certainly doesn’t mean we don’t proverbially “donate to charity” that just simply means we return the watch. This, I believe is the biggest problem with people’s spirituality (especially my own). We feel we can compensate for mistakes with something else, even though the problem or lack of honesty we created still exists. I’m not sure if this makes any sort of sense to anyone but me, but I felt like I really needed to write it down.