christian2005

Well so far I am failing miserably at this goal. My son is fed and cared for, he is dressed and diapered and loved, and most of the population would tell me that I am a great mom, that my son is healthy and I have nothing to worry about. But I do. I have so much to worry abuot. I never see my child anymore. I started a part time job and I am also in school. I have no time left for my son and I feel like a horrible parent. All I ever wanted was to be a SAHM, and now I’ve become one of those robots moving through life doing things as they come. When I do see him it’s for a few minutes at night to put him to bed. blah. The good thing is that the job is only until December, and school is only until April. the bad thing is that I am having another baby. I am due in June. I have no time for my son now, how the heck do I think I will have time for him once IO have a new baby! Seriously .. I know I’m not a “bad” mom, but I most definitly don’t feel like a “good” mom, nevermind “the best mom I can be” but those are just my thoughts atm .. talk to you later.

I do believe that I have to give up on this goal for atleast 9 months and then .. if I reopen the goal it will have to be a LOT more than 10 pounds. I recently found out I was pregnant and look forward to the birth of my child, if not the weight gain that accompanies pregnancy. sighs .. o well

So my yoga teacher (the only one in the area!!) cancelled all classes for this year. You have no idea how much that sucks, I’m not very motivated to do it at home.

So I bought a book, “Yoga for christians” everyone in my family has issues with me doing yoga .. but whatever .. I think this book will help me make it more Christ centered.

I’ve been reading it and have done some yoga twice since purchasing the book. I am so out of shape I can’t believe it.
I am hoping to do yoga every morning if possible. We’ll see how that goes. I’ll let you know ..