I don’t thing this matters anymore to me, because i discovered that in the times that i am happy, i don’t need to know where they are, and in the time i am sad they aren’t with me.
What i learned since i put this on my list, is that i can find parts of me on others, and i can see things of others that i would like to cultivate on myself, like courage, strength , etc.
But i still think it will be fun if happens!
I was sick , since friday. I wasn’t able to sleep for 2 days, the saturday there were moments that i wasn’t able to stay in a chair, i was so tired, i got a fever pretty high.
But today after discovering that i’m allergic to amoxycilina, i visited another doctor and he give me a new medication. The change was incredible!
In like 2 hours most of my symptoms were at 50%, and now like 40% all with just 1 dosis, i think in 3 or 4 days i will be as good as new.
I put this here because it makes me happy, i feel so much better, and happy because it was nothing serious. It taked like 15 minutes to walk slowly from the hospital to the subway (4 blocks), so i can enjoy the day, the temperature was nice and the weather perfect.
The sun was bathing the leaves of trees , everything was luminous , splendid. When i was waiting 2 hours for the doctor to see me, and then 50 minutes for my injection, i saw lots of people suffering, i felt sad for them, i wish all of them get healty soon. But when i got out, felt happy for all i got..
When i was waiting in there, 2 doctors were chatting with each other about someone who died that day, for them it was just another day in work, but for the family and friends of that person it must have been a really tough day.
I think, i’m getting closer…to being happy
It’s hard to throw away all the trashy ideas i have in my head, all the stupidity i learn from others and all the stupid ideas that i made myself.
But im trying everyday to rebuild my way of thinking, and my moral code from what i believe, not what others wants me to believe.
And this makes me happy
Well i’m 28 and i still don’t know what to do with my life. Life is running faster than me, i should run faster because eventually i will be too behind.
