I feel like a bad person adding this to my list, like I’m disgusting… But I’m not here to judge anyone and I hope they’ll be the same about me :)
But my “reason” for not showering as often as I should is due to the fact that I have aquagenic pruritus, which is a skin condition which means I get INSANE itching all over my body after contact with water. Essentially, it is an allergic reaction to water with no known cure.
I have found a temporary fix in NaPCA skin spray which I have found helps stop the itching better.. But I still get itchy after showering and it almost makes me scared to go in there because I know the process of getting out and defusing the itching is such a long one that I don’t even want to go through with it.
The lesser showering got worse after I lived in India and I literally didn’t have the choice to shower because we had a limited water supply. But I really want to get back into good, hygienic habits once and for all and conquer my fear!
Ah yes, I’m at the stage where I’m still like, “Yeahhh I really need to do it..” But haven’t quite got there yet.
I started off with the whole “social smoking” thing and I think I STILL don’t consider myself a “smoker” even though I know I really am one.
I can go days without having a smoke and feel fine, but there are moments where I feel like I can’t go without one, not so much out of a craving, but just out of habit. I think that’s the downfall with smokers, it becomes like breathing, or drinking water. It is just done.
I smoke in my car, when I drive. Of course I can drive without having a ciggie, but when I’m driving somewhere alone, and longer distance, away from home, I want one! Also if I’m at my boyfriend’s house and we’ve just eaten, I’ll normally light up straight after. And of course, the smoking while drinking. When I’ve had a few drinks, nothing stops me.
My boyfriend and I have vowed to stop after this pack (but don’t we all?) ... We’ll see how it goes.