cinziac

i am very stressed and anxious and this doesn’t help. it’s not good to have a baby if I am like that. nature knows it. so first I need to be able to control my anxiety and my stress and relax more. if i manage to do that, maybe my baby will arrive

I would like to change career and work with kids, i would like to volunteer first to see if I am good in that. I would like to feel useful and spend my time helping kids. I think I could be good. my first step is volunteer in a school. then from there I will decide if going back to school and change completely my job.

stop criticize myself. I have been doing meditation which helped me controlling my critics, but then I stopped. so now I am back again to the old schemes. Old story, my bad thoughts my criticism, I am not good in doing this, I am not capable… bla bla.. I didn’t stop these thoughts at the beginning and after a few weeks I started feeling low, depressed unhappy and miserable. I knew that but I didn’t stop the thoughts when I could. so now it takes me all my energy all my strength to come back on tracks. i wish I had not let them in.
from now on I won’t criticize myself, and I won’t let any bad thoughts running free in my mind. no more promise !