I'm doing 28 things
right now, i am in such a better place. i was thinking about where i was, and where i’ve been, mentally physically, emotionally, within that past six months, and it was terribly unpleasant. especially moving out here, on my own, at 18, being on my own, being fragile, alone, with him leaving me… when i had absolutely no one else… i find that.. very, rough. finding myself doing things, that are beyond my character, and who i am. im finally getting over it all and getting to a place where i need to be. finding mentors, relishing in my art, finding a better sense of who i am, and who i aim to be. i find that, if you surround yourself with people who are doing things, and going places, than you will find it will be easier for you to do what you need to do. i’ve grown. a lot. and my outlook on life, has been changing. i’ve seen such a change, even in the past 2 months, maybe in the past month actually. i dont ever want to go to that dark place ever again… it was the worst. i can do this. i can. i am doing this. i am.
i realized that the feeling of loneliness, has been common battle in and out of my life. i can be surrounded by a million people, yet still feel so terribly alone inside. however, right now, i don’t really feel that, so much anymore. i still have the same people surrounding me, but i find that loneliness is a state of mind. its something that you choose to be.
i love my life. i cherish every lucky day i get to live and breathe this wonderful life. im still here. and i don’t plan on going anywhere. i want to make every day the best day of my life.
im happy, for now.. anyway.
i dont got no money, i dont got much love, i dont really have a job, but ive got .. a mind.
a mind.
a heart.
a soul.
a dream.
a future.
<3
life is good.
i cant ever forget that.
hopefully this one stays on my
“things i’ve done” list…
