clavstar

it happened about a month ago, with a guy (now my boyfriend) who i met a few months ago. he’s 2 years older than me and i was absolutely terrified, because i thought for some reason that he would care that i had never kissed anyone before. i’m happy to say that i was wrong!

we went to see a film,i started to get more scared and actually spent the whole film thinking about what i thought would be a complete disaster…the end credits rolled and he leant in and kissed me, and i must admit my brain shut down and i just sat there like a complete idiot while he carried on! eventually i got the hang of it and kissed him back…it might not feel fantastic first time around, but keep practising, believe me it gets A LOT better =D

and coming from a girl who thought nobody would ever want to kiss her, just wait, IT WILL HAPPEN ONE DAY. the only way it wont is if you continue to think it wont. i’m also really glad that i didn’t just kiss someone i didn’t fancy just to get it out of the way, it made it really special for it to be with my now boyfriend :)

the feeling you get in your stomach…it’s like having a chair yanked out from underneath you…but i guess that’s because i knew i’d have to turn him down :(

just looking forward to the day when a guy i fancy asks me out, until then i won’t accept just because i’m desperate. i’ll keep going on!

oh god im going to look so fat compared to the other girls. it’s like i’m not even trying