I'm doing 14 things
Old boyfriend started emailing and I’ve missed him so started emailing back and now feel drained and tired and asking myself what the hell I got myself into. He wanted to know why I quit talking to him. I told his straight out that I felt like I was just one of many women that he had on his side and that he just wanted to make me a notch. I have to come to a conclusion about this. I’m now daydreaming about spending time with him having much fun like we have in the past but I can’t let myself get into that web anymore. It was painful, took a long time to pull out and now the emotions are there again. He can write the sweetest emails and I can fall back into place with them and then I just don’t want the up and down from emotions that I got with him. I quit answering his emails and he has texted or emailed me through the year and I answered him on his 4th message to me wanting to know why I did not ever answer his emails. This is making my emotions jump a bit but I’m not in love with him. He would be a pain in the ass. Now the pulling off again.
clearthinker's Life List
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1. Come to a clear decision about him and stick with it.
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2. Weigh 129
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3. Find friends that I can be myself with
6 entries . 131 cheers1 person -
4. Find 1 best friend
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5. Make money and save it
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6. Do something positive with the way I look.
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7. Find a good paying job in 2009 that I love.
6 entries . 37 cheers1 person -
8. Work on forgiveness. Let it leave my body, mind and soul.
45 entries . 58 cheers1 person -
9. Get my office and paper work in tip top working order and organized
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10. Build a beautiful bath hut in my back yard
6 entries . 46 cheers1 person -
11. Find one man that I can connect with on all levels.
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12. Finish my quilt
2 entries . 22 cheers148 people -
13. Build a comfortable cabin in the woods.
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14. Weigh 120 and stay there forever
2 entries . 2 cheers1 person
How I did it
It made me
Satisfied 
How I did it: I broke up with him because I could not take his nonsense anymore. He has tried to get together several tries but I won't give in. I feel much better and much more free since away from him. Also felt weird and used even though I know he loved me. Read how I did it…
Recent entries
Oh no
2 days ago
Former boyfriend
5 days ago
I get an email from my former boyfriend. Someone that I’ve worked very hard to get over and put behind me. He wrote about the memories that we made together. What on earth does he want now after years?
Good grief.
138 1/4
6 days ago
Weight today after eating breakfast and drinking 16 ounces of water.
It seems to be my set point. I have to beat this down and start to loose again. I think I will go to hypnosis and give this an honest try again. Weird why it’s hanging on.
