clueless27

i cant believe its been almost 2 years and im still not over her. well shes moved to another college away from here and i think thats really going to help, hopefully a few weeks after to this entry she’ll finally be out of my head/(heart??).wish me luck..

for the past year i’ve been carrying around with me a heart full of love and sorrow,full of joy and happiness, but most of all, a heart full of pain. you see, truth be told i’m still hopelessly in love with my ex, i always have and i’m scared that i probably may always will. and it just really pains me to know that she’ll probably never feel the same way about me again. and even if she did, she’ll never show it. the only thing that i can hold on to now is our friendship, the only thing that still ties me to her. i just wish that this feeling would finally pass.

its confusing really.i wrote an entry about this girl a few months ago and how there could potentially have been love between us.turns out i was wrong.i went in to it with the most sincere of intentions,and i never meant to hurt her.but i just couldn’t pull through with it after realizing i’m still in love with my ex.i mean i’ve always known there was still something there.but i just never paid that much attention to it until a couple of weeks ago.i thought that after all this time i’d finally be over her.sigh*