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I know it makes sense not to waste your life existing, but sometimes you don’t realize that you are doing it. It wasn’t until I saw one of my favorite films that I began to examine my own life. Basically, I’ve put all my dreams aside because I decided to go to nursing school for two years. Nursing school took over my life. I decided that I wasn’t going to pursue a relationship and delay all the things that I’ve ever wanted until next year. The funny thing is, all of this waiting had become my life. I was always thinking that “After I graduate, I will do this and get that…” I couldn’t see that life begins today! Not after I graduate from nursing school. I now realized that I can’t take back those years or months that I’ve spent studying and depriving myself from truly living.

This is a long term goal for me because I’m so far out to the left that I would have to take a year off before working as a nurse and discover myself again. The person that I’ve become lives only for the future and not for the present. This hits me really hard because one of my classmates who graduated this year finished the program and had a stroke.

Actually, I recently took the NET (Nursing Entrance Test). I don’t know if this will be useful to anyone, but if you are planning to take one of the entrance exams please use a book that specifically teaches you how to take the specific exam you are planning to take. I bought a study guide book and borrowed some other books from the library. While they were extremely helpful, they didn’t help me. The companies want to save money so they try to use one book and apply the material to all the entrance exams. When I took the exam, I discovered that more than half the stuff I studied for wasn’t even on the exam. I was worried for no good reason. Use a study guide that shows you how to take the specific exam you are studying for. Hope this helps someone.

Actually, I just realized that I don’t want to be a nurse. I want to live a purposful life and not do something because it pays well and it’s a safe career choice. I’m making a decision to follow my heart, which tells me to go follow Christ. He will lead me to my passion.