This Is My Now
Jordin Sparks
There was a time I packed my dreams away
Living in a shell, hiding from myself
There was a time when I was so afraid
I thought I’d reached the end
Baby that was then
But I am made of more than my yesterdays
[Chorus]
This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment
As I look around
I can’t believe the love I see
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubts
That was then, this is my now.
Had to decide was I gonna play it safe
Or look somewhere deep inside
and try to turn the tide
Find the strength to take that step of faith
This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment
As I look around
I can’t believe the love I see
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubts
That was then, this is my now.
[Bridge]
And I have the courage like never before, yeah
I’ve settled for less but ready for more
Ready for more
This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment
As I look around
I can’t believe the love I see
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubts
That was then, this is my now.
This is my now
Oct 04, 03:59PM PDT | 0 comments
Yeah so I know he feels the same. Cool. Now the hardest part starts…
Now I have to actually put all my past crap behind me and move forward, and that’s going to take alot. A part of me knows this is it, I think this is the person. And that scares me to heck and gone. And the fact that I have to open up emotionally is terrifying, especially since we aren’t together yet (he is away for two weeks so I have to wait to see him and see what happens). I’m so, so scared of getting hurt again. I’ve been hurt, used, ignored and taken for granted so many times I actually cannot imagine someone loving me. Someone who would do as much for me as I do for them. In the past it’s always been me putting in so much effort and time into everything and getting less back. Could somebody actually give back as much as they take? Could there really be someone that won’t be embarrassed by me being silly in public? Who won’t tell me I’m overweight when I’m not? Someone who won’t push me to do things I don’t want to do and won’t hold me back from being the intense person I am? Could I really be vivacious, exciting, beautiful, amazing, breathtaking, and encouraging to this guy? Could he love me for ME and not for the things I do for him or the way I look on his arm? A guy that wants to go on rollercoasters and build sandcastles with me, smell the flowers, dance in the rain, yet can still understand my deeper side? And yet who doesn’t need me to save him, because he is confident being the person he is in Christ.
Sep 22, 01:10PM PDT | 0 comments
Met this guy at a friend’s birthday party and wow… He seems really interesting, and we have alot to talk about, and we chat quite often about various things. And for once I am not stressing like mad about my feelings, which is a step up. Just having fun flirting and stuffs, and he seems to like it lol. Which is weird considering this is the first time I am actually deliberately flirting with someone I like. He asked me out sorta the other day but I have plans for the day he wants to go =( But oh well we will see what happens next.
Sep 14, 04:19PM PDT | 0 comments
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