Waiting and waiting for the right person to show up. Why is it so hard to wait? I dont want to sleep with someone I’m not in love with, but how do I get my body to understand all this? Sometimes it’s so difficult…
Mariann's Life List
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1. learn Dutch
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2. study abroad
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3. Smile everyday
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4. find a real friend
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5. Feel good about myself
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6. meet interesting people
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7. travel around the world
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8. visit New York
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9. watch art movies
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10. be more social
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11. live my life instead of daydreaming all the time
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12. become more self-confident
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13. make a difference
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14. make people feel better about themselves
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15. be happy
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16. be a hippie
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17. learn to forgive
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18. trip
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19. find my balance
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20. stop trying to impress people I don't even like
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21. visit coffee shops around the world
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22. find true love
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23. understand people
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24. travel to cuba
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25. travel around the world for a year
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26. slow dance to jazz
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27. go to my level every day
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28. Read 'The Unbearable Lightness of Being' by Milan Kundera
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29. forget the past, live in the present and smile when thinking of the future
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30. Experience the Northern Lights.
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31. eat healthy
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32. get a scholarship to the Netherlands for financing my Masters
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33. love my body
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34. become comfortable with my sexuality
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35. Have a chance encounter with an old crush
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36. excercise regularly
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37. work because I like to, not because I have to
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38. achieve the figure I've always dreamed of : )
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Recent entries
So hard to do...
21 months ago
Not willing
21 months ago
I guess it’s time to forgive my first love and his girlfriend. To be ignored hurts sometimes more than being hated. Especially if you care about those, who look through you. But it’s all in the past. If I keep thinking about them and about what could’ve been and should’ve been done, I won’t be able to go on. Carrying this weight has become almost unbearable and I’m not willing to do it anymore.
It’s time to free myself, time to start a new life and enjoy every minute of it! :)
:D
21 months ago
Well, that’s what I’m doing right now. I’m a psychology student at last. :D High school was a real torture, but I guess it was all worth it!
