I have an actual, workable plan for this now! It seems to be going well! I broke this down into small, attainable chunks, like “replace soda with water” for this week and “try to eat one fruit or vegetable today”, for example. It’s working for me much better than a huge, enormous changeover of everything – whenever I try to change all of my habits at once, I wind up going back to old habits because I’d feel deprived. I don’t have any of that now, even though I’ve also cut back on food in general as well.
(On a related note, if anyone needs non-food related reward ideas for when you attain goals, I’d be happy to share mine to help you brainstorm! I broke that down into small chunks as well, and it’s also working fine just far and I’m 3/4 of the way into my second week. Normally I’ve blown it by now!)
The other day, this goal became considerably more difficult. Not impossible, but difficult.
There is a certain test that I needed to pass to stay a music education major. Last semester I took it early and failed. They allowed one retake at the end of this semester, which I also failed. Therefore, I am being forced to leave the department. (I would also like to mention that I truly tried my hardest for this test so I feel no shame in failing it.)
So now I am seeking a new major. I want to stay in music, so I was thinking of switching to a voice performance program. This keeps me on the campus I am used to, with the people I love, and it is a program in which I am honestly interested.
However, the people in charge keep recommending another program: the Bachelor of Arts in Music program. Nothing against this major, but I’m completely UNinterested in the program as a whole and it forces me to change to a much larger campus without any of the friends or faculty that I’m used to. None of the people at the school will accept so far that I don’t want to do that and that it is, in fact, my life and my money paying for this education and that I should get to decide what to do with both of those things. They won’t even give me a reason as to why they don’t want me in the voice performance program and, yes, I have asked more than once.
So: in the interest of NOT being a hypocrite and getting to be happy with my eventual career, I have set up a meeting with my adviser, who is one of the people set dead against my even AUDITIONING for the voice performance program for no adequately explained reason. Should she still believe that I shouldn’t do it by the end of the meeting, I will set up an appointment with the head of the voice department for an audition myself. I should at least be allowed to try. That’s all I ask.
The morals of the story: 1. don’t let anyone keep you from following your dreams. 2. Roadblocks suck.
I’ve been feeling good lately, if my Morale-O-Meter is to be believed (and I don’t remember to update that every day), and I’m not sure why. Frankly, life isn’t going the way I want it to at the moment, except for one or two really great things.
I’m guessing, though, that the bad things won’t seem so bad and will work out in the end as long as I can stay positive!