colorblindmind

ever since i had my first kiss a few monthes ago when i get drunk i somehow make out with guys. it’s super annoying so i’m trying to go out without drinking especially since i have to get up for work on saturday and sunday. yeah it’s bad.it’s not that i don’t have self-respect. i am just intoxicated and always wanting some. sad day.

so ive been in one relationship with a boy i loved in high school. pretty sure he was gay. we never did anything. this lasted less than a month.

in college i started going out and boys noticed me. i was asked out by a few (seriously….the first i met them), more then a few tried to kiss me, etc….wasn’t having it.

then one tried and i kinda liked him. but i wouldnt let him since i just met him. he called a month later and i let him and other stuff. it was fun.

second time it was still kind of fun but i think i cant do that without emotions being attached so im gonna break it off. i need someone who really cares about me.
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me and my friend started this week!!! and we are on a roll

gave it up a month ago and feel great

i finally decided my secret.. ive never told anyone and i never will and its funny:)

a very beautiful language!!! i got stuck with the worst professor ever. luckily i love my TA and he helps alot. i love persian soo much

i looked for courses at school but they didnt offer any…atleast i looked

i’m in intro persian class and i love it!!! it makes more sense than english to me, but I still have to work hard on it. It’s so pretty and I am left handed so it’s easier to write!!!!

i like it i like it

1.babies

2.singing musicals

3.exercising

4.handmade gifts

5.my red comforter

6.being independent

7. keeping good relations with people

8. when people cry because they are happy

9. sexual indeundos

10. dancing

11. the sun

12. going to UT

13. working

14. speaking in front of groups

15. cooking stir fry

this probably goes along with the losing weight. i hate that i am muscular but big. i dont want to be a size 0 but i want to look normal

I started today, jogging 1 mile and walking 3/4. I can exercise like crazy on the elliptical but i’m so used to it that it doesn’t work anymore.

sunday accomplished

I was riding my bike today and was listening to a love song and thought “wow i am really enjoying this because i am not in love: I love life so much right now that I don’t feel the need to be in love. You just need good people around you and something to do. I hope to find it one day, but today i am okay:)the picture is from a farm i went to today for a going away party. i thought it was amazing that a trash can could say that and be so pretty:)

I need help. i am really addicted to artifical sweetners and if i dont have them i eat tons of sugar things and feel less energtic and sick. any tips?. ps i dont buy it i take them from my cafeteria:(.

I have a job during the week and babysit on weekends and ive had so many memories i wanted to capture and without a camera i was miserable so i went to sears and made sure i for the right one. it goes underwater and has black and white options. I bought a nice carrying case and 4 gb memory. all of it was 200 because it was on sale but i feel like since i am very financially responsible its worth it!!

it bothers me to have little things out that add up and then i feel ashamed when i dont want people in my room

I just always want to help people out a little and be nice but i never finish doing it.:)

i bought a nice olympus off ebay for 120 and it just broke. it only have a one year warranty and the shop said fixing it would cost 100 dollars so i have to buy a new one. its kind of traumatic for me:(

it would be fun because supposed liberals are more open minded

i always remember what it will look like and say then i forget and get lazy. but one day i will!!!