completeanduttermess

Training for the marathon is my first step and, seeing as I can barely run a few yards before collapsing in a breathless mess, it is undoubtedly a difficult step.
I have found a training schedule for beginner runners online and I intend to follow this. Hopefully though it is for beginners like me and not just beginner runners who are regular gym members or something!
As step one, today I will do two mile. The schedule says that I can walk or run this depending on my fitness level so that sounds promising. A tip it offers is to run for two minutes and walk for three minutes. I think that sounds manageable but of course I may have a different attitude later…

I need to do something useful with my time. I basically just work and eat and sleep and I don’t even do my work very well! I am determined to do this before the summer. Now if only I get a course sorted while this motivation lasts because otherwise it will just be another “to-do” on an ever-increasing list…

Can anyone help me with this goal? At the moment I am failing college, I am clinically depressed, I have virtually ignored most of my friends to the point that they no longer care about me. I am certain that I will lose my job this weekend because I didn’t turn up for work and never called to tell them. I know all my problems are my own fault but I can’t figure out how to sort them!! Or maybe I am just a lazy, useless, selfish waste of space? I think that is probably true. I would love to be pretty and care about others and make an effort to be the best I can be but I really don’t have the energy or the greatest desire…