complex1

It’s not about losing weight. It’s about being healthy and strong, and not dying of preventable diseases.

It’s not about what I ‘shouldn’t’ eat, it’s about making the right choice- for my teeth, for my kidneys, for animals, and ethics and compassion.

It’s not about being better than anyone, or trying to make anyone do anything- and I don’t want people to accommodate me, (if they make a big deal out of it, I will have to resolve to stick with it anyway) it’s about doing what’s right and being my true self. Freedom is in living out your true self. Freedom is living your beliefs.

I can eat the chocolate if I choose to, and it’s not like the whole thing goes to shit then. This isn’t a test. This isn’t a law. It’s me, just me, making choices. Learning self control and role modeling.

It IS about setting a good example for my children, and for others, and for myself.

I can do this. I can overcome headaches, and hunger and cravings. I can make good choices. I can be the person I want to be. I can do it today, and tomorrow. And if I make a mistake I can keep on going anyway, because mistakes aren’t the end of the world. I’m not going to throw the whole idea out the window just because I ate a cookie. But I’m also not going to eat a cookie. Because I want to feel good in my body. I want to be healthy. I want to be my true self- the one who takes care of her kidneys and her teeth, and her mind. The one who demonstrates strength.

I made the choice to not eat any processed or ‘free’ sugar today. I feel really good. I got a headache though, around 9pm. I ate oatmeal, and it went away. I really do feel good. I also chose to not eat any animal products, which makes me feel good about myself. Good job, day number one. :)

I joined a forum, to keep me on board. motivation ahoy.