I have been so busy with work and as a result, I’ve also been very cranky and impatient. Weekends come and I hardly want to go anywhere. This morning, my mom asked me to take her to the mall that has just opened a couple months ago. Seriously, I did not want to go. 1. It’s more than an hour away and it’s right in the heart of Bangkok, traffic is always a nightmare and 2. It’s just me and my mom in a wheelchair, I didn’t feel like we had to go there just to “go to the mall”. Any mall would do.
I guess I made it too obvious and I didn’t want to go. I agreed to take her out though, but with an attitude.
I felt a bit guilty 10 minutes after we got in the car. She was quiet and so was I. Then I tried to start a conversation. She spoke but turned her face to make it look like she looked out the window and I could just tell that she was crying. She didn’t want me to see it.
I know it’s too late for an apology and now I’m left with this guilt I do not know if I could make it up to her. I thought I was close to achieve this goal, but I guess i was wrong.