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I realize I’m still working on my phoenix tattoo, which has significant meaning to me, but I’m already thinking about my next one. I actually already know what I want: a tattoo of a tree. I’m not sure if I want to just go with like.. the celtic tree of life, or if I want to do something in relation to my bipolar disorder (I have a cool tree design dealing with it).

I’ll probably get this done as a reward for completing a few other things I’ve wanted to do. I added this to my list as motivation to complete a few of the goals I have set.

I wrote this down because it’s something I had eventually wanted to do, and today I realized I just need to do it. I live in a really unhealthy situation right now, so I can’t exactly afford my wonderful old organic, vegan diet. Since I started eating processed foods, I’ve gained like 15-20lbs, putting me at a high weight I can’t stand.

Today I ate a microwave pizza and some reeses. I have no idea why I ae the reeses. It made me realize that I need to stop now. So the first thing I am giving up is sweets. Sweets is the umbrella word that includes but is not limited to: ice cream, candy, cookies, brownies, doughnuts, muffins, cakes, pies, pudding, fudge, hot cocoa, soda, etc. I will allow myself one sweet a day, and that will be a piece of dark chocolate. Just one of those dark chocolate squares that Dove makes. 47 calories.

I’m also going to give up pizza. For some reason I eat a lot of that shit, and it has to stop. I don’t care how cheap it is. No. That goes for anything pizza flavored as well. It needs to go out of my diet. The only pizza I am allowed is that stuff that like.. Lean Cuisine sells.

So that’s my goal for now. I’ll check back in a week and let you know how I am doing. I’m going to try and buy more salads and cheap veggies/fruits, and eat those instead of everything else. I’ll probably start a journal for my whole.. bettering my life thing. Diet+exercise+giving up bad food.

So, if all goes according to plan, I may be moving out of the ‘burg in April. My lady friend and I really want to leave, and I can get us a temporary place with my family in texas until we can get our own.