Such a mixture of emotions. Some small part of me still loves my ex. Mostly, though, I feel such a great deal of anger, loneliness, and sadness. My feelings about the break up would not be so strong if other aspects of my life were better. I mean, if I had a job that I really liked, I wouldn’t think about my ex so often. I guess those other parts of my life are the things I really have to work on right now.
could_be_worse's Life List
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1. get a job
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2. create a budget and stick to it
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3. get a library card
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4. work out two times a day (at least 1 half hour) for 2 weeks
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5. throw a miracle fruit party
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6. make a dress
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7. Take more pictures of my life
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8. write a story
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9. have a picnic
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10. dress up more
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11. join a club
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12. Do the Couch to 5k running plan
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13. take a photography course
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14. find out 43 things about myself
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15. put myself out there
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16. run a 5k
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17. try 10 new recipes
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18. eat 5 fruits and vegetables a day
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19. Donate blood
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20. Send a postcard to Postsecret
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21. identify 100 things that make me happy.
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22. Learn Spanish
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23. wake up when my alarm clock goes off
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24. Clean and Organize my apartment
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25. only watch an hour or less of tv a day
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26. try 30 new things in 2009
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27. stop procrastinating
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28. lose 20 pounds
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29. read 52 books in 2009
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30. Sleep more
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31. Write entries for all my things.
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32. care more about my appearance
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33. get over my broken heart
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How I did it: I live in New York and I joined a recreation center. It was cheap, close to my apartment, and best of all it has a pool! I never really liked exercise, until I found swimming. I started going three times per week and each time I would do more laps. The best moment came when I swam a full mile (72 laps)! Whoo! Read how I did it…
How I did it: I had been thinking about going for a while, but I was always a bit scared. My dad's death hit me very hard and I think that it took a lot out of me at the time. But, today was father's day. After I took my mom out for lunch, she asked me if I wanted to visit the cemetary, but also said that we didn't have to go if I didn't feel up to it. I thought that it was a good time. My mom and I just sat on a bench in front of the space in the… Read how I did it…
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I told my ex that I wasn’t going to have any contact with him in the future for an indeterminate period of time. He says that he wants to be friends with me. However, whenever we get together, we just have sex, which seems to be the only time that he is really nice to me. Even worse, he has been seeing another girl, who he takes to parties and who he has introduced to his friends. He treats me like a mistress or his “dirty little secret.” But, I ended it today. This is a great step towards regaining my life and my self-esteem. Although I am not looking for anyone right now, the next guy that I am with will treat me with the respect that I deserve.
I started up a routine of swimming. Now I am half way to my goal!!!
