At first I was shocked to hear about Oscar Pistorius. The shooting in itself was horrifying enough, but then reading about the bloody cricket bat they found? Appalling.
The first thing I thought of when I heard that he’d killed his girlfriend was ‘roid rage.’
Finding out today that the police have found illegal steroids in his home was…disgusting to me. Not only that it wasn’t shocking, but that this man who was an inspiration to so many is potentially a fraud.
He talked about enjoying being a role model for those with disabilities. He liked being one. If he shunned it, that would be one thing but he welcomed it. This isn’t someone who was put on a pedestal against his will/want; he wanted to be an inspiration to others.
He was incredible as he was. He was more than his disability; he was an athlete who did amazing things for an “able bodied” (I hate that term) person; coupled with a disability they were extraordinary.
The fact that he may have taken PEDs or is taking them now is such a let down. Everything he accomplished wasn’t enough? The man made history – What could this have gotten him? What message is he sending to those he hoped to inspire? Try your hardest and when that’s not good enough cheat too? Disabled people can only be amazing if they take PEDs?
The worst part is that if it’s confirmed he’s taking them, even if he didn’t take them in the Olympics, no one will believe him. He may have his medals and records stripped. If he took PEDs then, he deserves that.
Now his girlfriend is dead at his hands; and if he claims it was roid rage… is that an excuse? I don’t think so. It may offer an explanation, but in my mind that doesn’t give him the right to skirt culpability.
If it truly was an accident (that he thought she was an intruder as is one theory) and he never took drugs, then I feel bad for him because his life is ruined. If it wasn’t an accident, then he deserves what he gets. Bashing in someone’s skull and shooting them four times – three through a door where they were hiding, doesn’t seem like an accident.
I’m just…disappointed and disgusted. That it’s not shocking to have found drugs in an athlete’s home; that he’s no better than anyone else (though I suppose it’s our own delusion that had us hoping he was) and that he might be able to deny responsibility for a death because of it. That at the end of the day he might just be one more athlete took drugs, cheated and got into trouble with the law. Pathetic.