crazypinkandorange

so i’m FINALLY uploading my paperwork and shit for the suicide girls. i think doing this will boost my confidence level majorly. i’m doing it for me, and not to impress ANYONE. i don’t care really who knows that i’m doing it, as long as it helps me emotionally, i’m great. i’m going to shoot my photoset tonight. hopefully they choose to use it and i’ll have a few hundred more dollars than i do now!

much love,
chrissy

i’ve decided you can’t force love.
you can’t go out looking for it.
you have to just let it come to you.

so i will.
i’m not going to worry about it.
i’m young. it’ll all come to me someday.
right now, i’m happy with my life.
if someone wants to be with me, then i’ll deal with that when the time comes.
until then, here’s to being me on my own.
and heres to not looking for love.

i didn’t realize that until one of the little girls i babysit for came home crying one day. the boy she liked [and liked her back] went back out with his ex girlfriend. granted, they are all in third grade, but thats besides the point. i told her that if he couldn’t see how pretty she was and how awesome she was, that it was his problem. there will be plenty more guys. i told her that if a guy makes her cry, even if he isn’t intending to make her cry, he is not worth her time. that the guys that are worth it will find her, she doesn’t have to find him.

and so here’s to taking my own advice.

i am soon to move in with my two best guy friends.
they are named Bobby and Buck.
we are going to get a 2 or 3 bedroom apartment.
it will be a lot of fun but i am stressed out a little bit because of money.