crimsondenial

The reason I haven’t been around is some jackass from Nigeria accessed my hotmail account and proceeded to gain access to my ebay account and purchase a LOT of expensive items. First I was so angered with ebay and its sellers. The first time I got access to my account again, thanks to wonderful help from hotmail staff, I find out that because this guy has recently made purchases I can’t close the account for 180days. Also at how easy it is to change the password!
I had to log out of my hotmail account a day later and he gained access again. Since then I’ve left my account on all the time and have had to go back in and change all personal info.
And don’t even get me started on the sellers! I had contacted them all and explained what happened, stop all transactions! A majority of them were good and stopped everything right away. Others got angry, understandable, but there’s not much I can do. Then during the time when I lost access, the jackass emailed the sellers saying, oh this is my cousin’s account, she’s fine with it, please ship! And the sellers believe this!GAHHHH why do sellers not find it odd that the account is for a Canadian female, yet the person is asking it be shipped to a male in Nigeria?

This is just written out briefly before I actually talk to BF, but I could really use some advice before I do.

- I feel like we’re more roommates with benefits then partners. I don’t know if this is because of our schedules, personality…
At times I feel like he grows bored of me almost…. he’s hot and cold.

- BF spends more ‘quality’ time with his friends then me. Minimum bi-weekly guys nights, yet we went a whole year together barely going out, and then only to obligations (never alone.)

-I feel if I don’t plan an outing/adventure/visit we’ll never go anywhere. Example, I planned a road trip, along the way stopping for things that interest us, went on a 3hr cruise, nice hotel…etc.

-There’s an age difference between us. We don’t hang out with any of my friends because of this and he doesn’t like any of them. So it’s pretty much down to his friends that I have to bond with. I’m ok with this, but it never happens, which means I am down to no friends and this I don’t like.

BLANK’s having another party this weekend (I’m not invited, again). I’m not upset about not being invited, what I am upset about is that this is a chance for us to go out together and mingle with other couples. The only reason I’m not more vocal about it is that I could never be close with the friends wife so I don’t see it as a big loss (If it were ….. then there would be an uproar) I’m not saying every time BF see’s certain people I have to be there or we have to go together, if it’s a ‘guys’ night then great have a good time. But if there are other females then I want to be included so I can socialize too. Will this be what it’s like once we have kids, will it get worse?

Jealousy or ???
Before we got together BF was trying to have a coffee date with another female. Once we were together they finally arranged a good time, and later even went to a concert. This female is a friend of BLANKS. She was there the first time I went to the party, since then she’s not there when I go, and I’m not there when she is. And since about 5mths ago I haven’t been invited back. Is this fishy or am I just being stupid?

I went out to specialty to store, got fitted and found two! Now that I’m wearing ones that actually fit, I can’t go back to my other ones :( Its just not comfortable.

The hard part is that being a 36F/FF there isn’t much selection without getting granny style (which I hate!) and they are so much more expensive! But I found two really nice (non-granny style) ones and am happy.