I’m doing better.
I’m realizing I can be fine on my own.
And…I’m trying to find God through all of this. My ex didn’t believe so I stopped going to church…and the thing is, I think if there’s no God okay. Whatever. If there is, I want to believe and I want to love Him. I don’t think we’re here by accident, and I don’t think that my relationship occured and ended on accident. I want to be a true follower.
Anyway, I’ve been hanging out – no commitments, no plans…just me and the TV, my dog, and the computer. It’s nice being able to be lazy for once.
Nov 10, 2008, 01:55PM PST | 0 comments
I can’t stop crying and I can’t stop feeling sad.
Sometimes I feel really good but it goes away so soon. I feel so confused and sad and today is just a reflection of those feelings, because I slept too much and I moped.
I did get a long lost friend’s phone number, which is good, though right now, it doesn’t dull the pain.
Oct 16, 2008, 01:22PM PDT | 0 comments
I forgot about this goal.
So I am restarting.
Today I’m still working to get over my first and therefore my worst break-up. It’s especially hard when you and your first love plan to spend forever together but you just realized that that was a lie. So today is a day of realization.
I slept a lot and I’m trying to eat more. I know that sentence sounds so pathetic, but I’m being a lot stronger than I thought I would be.
I’m not doing any homework tonight just because I don’t want to.
But all day today, I was incredibly thirsty.
Oct 14, 2008, 05:01PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
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